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No More Shadows
by Arianna
Note: This story is a sequel to Will You Remember Me? I wish to thank Starfox for hosting my stories, and StarWatcher for her wonderful beta support over any number of stories! Special thanks to Vicky Orman who shared with me several folktales about the jaguar, tales that provided the mystical history
at the core of this story… ...and to Quietwolf, my expert on snakes. ******************** "Oh, man," Blair yawned, stretching and shivering as he climbed out of Ellison's truck an hour after dawn on the chilly gray
October day. "Am I glad that stakeout is over!" Jim smiled indulgently as he shook his head. The stakeout had paid off and the bust had gone down with no complications…one
more meth lab out of operation, at least until some other 'entrepreneur' set up operations to fill the demand from the streets.
"If you got some sleep instead of trying to redefine community policing during your off hours, you wouldn't be so tired,
Chief." Sniffing against the early morning chill as they strode into the building, Sandburg shrugged and grinned. "Yeah, well, all the
overtime has been worth it, in more ways than one," he observed. "I've got enough accumulated compensatory leave to ask Simon for
a couple of weeks off." "Uh huh," Jim grunted as he punched the button for the elevator and was pleasantly surprised when it opened immediately. Seemed
it was working again. Sandburg cut his partner a sharp look as he led the way inside and pressed for the third floor. As the doors clanked closed, he
said neutrally, "You don't have to go with me." "I said I'd go," Ellison replied, but his expression was less than enthusiastic. "But-do we really need two weeks? What could
possibly take that much time?" "Are you kidding?" Sandburg exclaimed in disbelief, his voice rising with his hands as he turned to face his partner. "This is
a new find, Jim. No one else has spent any time on the site yet. From what Simon, Megan and you have told me,
there're enough hieroglyphics and symbolism in those ruins, and man, the size of it alone, that it could take months, if not
years, to decipher and understand it all. And, then, on top of that, there's the need to interview the locals about
the myths, legends, you know, oral history, that could give us important information that's probably never been captured before.
Believe me, two weeks is nothing for a project this size." Nodding in resignation at the excitement in his best friend's voice, avoiding Sandburg's eyes, Ellison sighed as the doors
opened and they headed down the hall toward their respective apartments. "Yeah, well, it's not like you're making this your life's
work. You just want to look around, get a feel for the place, right?" Blair paused by his door, keys in his hand as he looked up at Jim. "Uh, Jim, actually, this is my life's work.
This temple is about sentinels, right? This is the best opportunity we've ever had to learn more about the traditional roles and
rituals, to maybe find out amazing things about how your senses could be used, controlled…" he replied, his voice low but
intense. "How much are we likely to really learn?" Jim cut in defensively. But he caught the look of exasperation on his partner's face,
and hastened to explain, "All I'm saying is, you've done a great job helping me to figure out these senses, and things are going
great, so…" "You really don't want to go, do you?" Blair sighed, turning toward his doorway and inserting the key. "Fine, whatever, like I
said, you don't have to come." "Sandburg," Jim exclaimed, frustrated. "I said I'd go. What do you want from me, here?" "What do I want?" Blair replied, turning to face his best friend, his own voice tight as he squinted a little with weary
aggravation, but he looked away, shaking his head at the look of trepidation in Ellison's eyes. Swallowing, he blew out a long
breath and then said, "I guess I'd like you to care as much about understanding your senses as I do. But it's not the same for
you, is it? I mean, you live with them-they aren't special to you, they're just useful and sometimes irritating. I'm the one who's
always struggling to be sure we're not missing something here, something important." Pushing his fingers through his unkempt
curls, he shrugged as he looked back up at Jim. "I mean it. You don't have to come if you don't want to. I know the place doesn't
hold the best of memories-but I have to go. I have to see if there's anything more there to be learned." "I know," Jim muttered. "And, well, I appreciate that you never stop looking for more ways to help me. I said I'd go and I
meant it. This is important to both of us." When Sandburg relaxed marginally, Jim continued, "I'll talk to Simon about getting the
time off. Our case load is in pretty good shape and there aren't any court dates on the docket for the next month." "Thanks, Jim," Blair acknowledged with the trace of a weary smile on his lips. "So, uh, what time do you want to head back
downtown?" Yawning, Ellison rolled his shoulders. "I told Simon we'd be in after lunch. Get some sleep, Chief," he replied, patting
Sandburg's shoulder as he moved to his own doorway. "Want to eat before we head in or get something on the way?" "My turn to make breakfast, or lunch, or whatever we call it," Sandburg offered. "See you around, what? Noon?" When Jim nodded as he opened his own door, Blair moved into his apartment. "Great, we get a whole five hours of sleep," he
mumbled as he closed the door and slid the deadbolt home. ******************** Simon wasn't exactly delighted by the request from his best team for leave, but he couldn't deny it. They'd earned the time,
and they needed the break. Truthfully, he wasn't concerned so much about not having them around-but he was very concerned about
what they planned to do with the time off. He couldn't explain it to himself, let alone to them, so he didn't try. He just told
them to be careful. But he couldn't deny the hollow feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach
that quickly rose to fill his chest making him feel a little breathless when
they'd told him they were heading to Sierra Verde to look for answers to explain
what had happened there. Watching them leave the office, he was conscious that
his mouth and throat were dry and he wanted desperately to call them back. They had to go, had to do this, though from the haunted look in Jim's eyes,
it was quite clearly not his idea nor his desire to probe those wounds and
reopen the pain and the confusion of the detective's visceral attraction to the
woman who had killed his partner. Grimacing with the memories of the morning at
the fountain, the subsequent chase after Alex Barnes, and of all that had
happened in Mexico and then finding Sandburg at death's door when they returned,
Simon sighed. He could well understand Ellison's aversion to the place and what
likely just about the worst time in the detective's life. Hadn't been any joy
for Sandburg, either, the Captain thought. Heading to Sierra Verde had to be
like digging at a raw, still sore scar that had only just begun to heal. Simon found himself thinking of Pandora's box and of how it should never have
been opened…and he wondered if the secrets and mysteries of that damned Temple
shouldn't also be eternally sealed. Shivering, he clenched his jaw as he closed
his eyes and willed himself to be calm and rational. It was just a heap of old
stones. What could possibly be dangerous there now? Blowing out a sigh, he shook his head. Rubbing long, lean fingers over his
mouth, he swallowed against the irrational fear that had captured him. He didn't
put a lot of stock in parapsychological nonsense and sure didn't believe he was
psychic-but he'd learned to trust his gut. And his gut was telling him this trip could mean trouble. Lifting off his glasses, he pinched the bridge of his nose and wondered if he
had the right to interfere-or if he had the responsibility to ensure his friends
were safe. His fingers beat a nervous tattoo on his desk as he considered going
with them but, finally, he shook his head. This was a sentinel/guide thing,
right? He had no business intruding, no part to play. Maybe Sandburg was
right-maybe there were things there that they needed to learn. Maybe it would
help Jim banish the shadows that still lurked in his eyes whenever he thought of
how he'd behaved during that terrible time. Reluctantly, he pushed aside his misgivings, resettled his glasses on his
face and turned his attention to the files on his desk. When his gut responded
with a churn of nausea, he told himself he was being ridiculous. They were grown
men, capable of taking care of themselves. What could happen? Feeling a fool, he reached for his phone and punched in Ellison's home number
to leave a message. "Jim, it's Simon. Look…uh, call me when you get to Sierra Verde to let
me know where you'll be staying. And, keep me posted, okay?" After the call, he sighed heavily as he again briefly pulled off his glasses
to rub his eyes. Tightening his jaw, fighting the irrational panic fluttering in
his chest, he resolutely turned his attention back to the heap of files on his
desk. ******************** "So that's where…" Blair murmured as he stared at the empty
stretch of beach, the wind rushing in with the breakers blowing his
sweat-dampened curls back from his face. "Yeah," Jim muttered with a shrug, unable to look at his partner.
They'd only just arrived in Sierra Verde and dropped their bags in their
air-conditioned room before Blair had asked him to show him around the small
village-and the beach. Jim felt unsettled, itchy and a headache was simmering
behind his eyes. His gut was knotted, his muscles tensed against the memories.
"I'm sorry," he grated, shaking his head, still unable to understand
what had driven him to behave so bizarrely. His actions with Alex, the
irresistible need to be with her, had overwhelmed and even frightened him-and
had left him feeling sick with self-loathing. Blair waved off the apology, his mind elsewhere as his narrowed eyes studied
the beach and then his gaze shifted to the tropical rain forest that encroached
upon the shore and surrounded the village. Wordlessly, he strode off toward the
thick growth of jungle, Ellison plodding along behind him. Pausing just before
he plunged into the shadowed forest, he told Jim, "We're looking for old
markers, statuary, stone plinths…" "Markers of what?" Ellison asked, frowning, not sure what they were
doing there. "You'll know when you see it," Sandburg replied, cryptically. Taking their time, they quartered the thick, overgrown forest floor,
gradually moving back from the beach. The air was suffocating, the thick foliage
cutting off the refreshing ocean breeze, and they sweated profusely in the hot
humidity, perspiration dripping from their faces and their clothing clung damply
to their bodies. Finally, Jim spotted a glint of stone or marble, covered in
vines and green with age. "I think I found something," Jim called to
his best friend, who was searching a little ways off to his left. Blair loped over, a look of speculation on his face and curiousity alight in
his eyes. It only took them a few minutes to clear off the three foot tall
ancient stone sculpture, Blair nodding as its form came clear, Jim feeling
confused, not sure what it meant. It was a stylized jaguar that faced out toward the ocean. "What's this all about, Sandburg?" Jim asked, a hollow feeling of
expectation in his chest. "It's a boundary marker, Jim," Blair explained, looking up from
where he was kneeling by the marker and then laying a hand on the stone to push
himself up to stand as he continued. "I think that stretch of beach had
ceremonial significance to sentinels. It may have been a place of traditional
mating rituals." "Mating?" Jim exclaimed, backing up a step. His hands came up, as
if warding off an attack and he shook his head. "You think what happened
was…was some irresistible, atavistic urge…like, like I was some kind of
animal in heat?" he protested, his voice tight with aversion. "Maybe," Sandburg nodded thoughtfully, lifting his own hands in a
calming gesture as he continued, "Jim, it makes a weird kind of sense, man.
You said you had a dream or vision or something that drew you to the beach, and
that you had no control over your feelings or behaviours, that you didn't
understand any of what happened about how you reacted to her…" His jaw rigid, Ellison shook his head again as he glared at the stone jaguar.
Gut roiling with nausea, almost gasping for breath as he turned away, Jim
thought he might be physically, violently, sick. "I'm a man," he
ground out, cutting off his partner's flow of speculation, "I should have
been able to control…" "Easy, Jim," Blair soothed, his voice low and steady as he moved
close enough to lay a hand on his friend's rigid, sweat-slicked arm. "Just
breathe and listen to me for a minute here. Think about it-sentinels were
essential to the survival of their clans, their tribes, but each village would
only have one, just one. It would be important to keep the line of sentinels
going, to ensure new ones were born with each successive generation. But
sentinels were by nature territorial; they were most likely enemies to one
another. There would have to be a time and place for them to gather safely,
without conflict. The relative proximity of the temple, and this marker,
indicate this may have been that place…" "You're talking about stuff that happened centuries, maybe thousands of years ago," Jim argued. "How could anything that
happened that long ago affect me now?" "I don't know," Blair replied as he pushed his fingers through his hair in frustration at his lack of answers. "We're way
beyond my limited expertise here, man. But I really think that might be part of what was happening to you." "She…she murdered you!" Ellison grated hoarsely, his eyes dark with the memories of all that had happened and his
appalling behaviour. "How could I want to touch her? I wanted to kill her!" Blair looked away, trying to deal with his own feelings of hurt and even betrayal at Jim's actions, but there was no
misunderstanding how disgusted Jim was with himself, or how much he regretted what had happened out on that beach, and later in
the jungle. "I know," he finally acknowledged quietly, looking back up at Ellison. "It wasn't anything as simple as pheromones, or
you'd have been attracted to her when you first met her. But a primal urge linked to the survival of the species can override just
about anything, Jim. I'm sorry, man-I can't begin to imagine how scary it must be to think you couldn't control it, especially
with her…" Ellison blew out a long breath as his shoulders slumped and he looked away into the jungle. He hadn't missed the fact that
Blair couldn't say her name, at least not in the context of the mating imperative that had overridden everything else back on the
beach. Closing his eyes, feeling suddenly very weary, Jim nodded briefly. Sandburg was right, it had been frightening to be so out
of control; more, in the circumstances, it had been horrifying. Like a nightmare that had become only too real. "You seen enough
here?" he asked, his voice rough with emotion, unable to hide his almost desperate desire to be somewhere else. "Yeah," Blair acquiesced, turning to lead the way back toward what passed for civilization in the village of Sierra Verde. "I
spotted a Taberna near the beach. Let's get a beer before we head back to the hotel." "Fine," Jim grunted as he followed after his Guide. The heat and heavy humidity surrounded them like a wet blanket, suffocating
and oppressive, exacerbating his headache and leaving Jim feeling as if he was
trapped in a bad dream. But the brisk, sea-scented wind cooled them once they'd
plodded out of the jungle. Jim looked out over the rolling sea, squinting a
little as he studied the horizon. Though he could see no distant clouds in the
azure sky, it was the season for tropical storms and the brisk wind blowing in
told him one could blow in quickly; the thought made him feel uneasy. Silently,
each lost in his own thoughts, they ambled back along the top of the beach to
the small, disreputable adobe bar that looked like it had seen better days. The
old, weather-stained sign over the curved entry-way was a representation of
fiery flames, with the taverna's name imprinted in black over the faded red and
orange, ‘Botoque and the Jaguar.' After the blistering glare outside, the taverna was dark, and blessedly cool.
Inside, the air was redolent with the succulent and enticing fragrances of
roasting meats from the brazier behind the bar, peppers, and spices mingling
with the slightly sour, rich scent of beer and the sweeter overlay of liquor.
Hitching up onto stools by the scarred wooden bar, Sandburg tapped an
unconscious tattoo of energy as he gazed around, from the fly-spattered mirror,
dark with age and smoke, to the round tables fully occupied by casually dressed
locals who likely lived in the narrow lanes nearby. People were chatting in
Spanish with easy good humour, some laughing as they visited with the ease of
long acquaintance. The bartender waved at them with cheerful nonchalance as he
delivered up dishes of simple finger foods and cervasas with lime, tequila and
margaritas in frosted glasses to the customers grouped around the tables. "Buenas Tardes, Señores!" he greeted them finally as he
moved back around the bar, addressing them in English having correctly surmised
from their clothing and demeanor that they were most likely tourists. "Me
llamo José! How may I serve you?" "Dos Cervezas, por favor," Blair replied with an easy smile in the
local lingo. José smiled at the courtesy of his customer's attempt at Spanish
as he nodded and turned to open the bottles and fill two tall chilled glasses.
When he placed the foaming glasses, wet with droplets of condensation, onto the
bar in front of them, the anthropologist continued, "Gracias. Uh, your
place has an unusual name-I'll bet there's a story behind it." Smiling broadly, the bartender nodded. With a quick look around his small
establishment to ensure no one was awaiting service, he leaned forward, elbows
on the bar as he replied in heavily accented, musical English, "Si, it's a
good story about how Botoque, a young Indian boy, brought fire to his
people." "Yeah?" Blair encouraged as he took a sip and cut a quick,
sparkling look of anticipation at Jim before turning back to the bartender.
"I'm an anthropologist, and if you've got the time, I'd love to hear
it." "Well, Señor," the middle-aged, swarthy man began as he opened a
beer for himself and took a swig, and then wiped the back of his hand across his
lips, "I'm glad to share it with you." For the next hour, occasionally taking time off to serve other customers who
themselves became caught up in the story and first offered details as he went
along, and then joined in wholeheartedly to assume parts in the familiar, local
folktale, the amiable man shared the story of Botoque and the Jaguar. "One day, an Indian went out to hunt for baby parrots with one of the
youths of his tribe named Botoque. After a long walk, the Indian noticed a macaw
nest on top of a tall and narrow cliff. When the Indian saw two red-billed macaw
parents fly off to find food for their nestlings, he convinced Botoque that he
should attempt to capture the young birds left behind in the nest. The Indian
leaned a long pole against a rock so the youth could climb up to the nest. Once
Botoque reached the nest, he saw not only several baby birds but two eggs as
well." Blair and Jim exchanged amused looks as they sipped their beers and
remembered fondly one of the earliest moments in their friendship when Sandburg
had climbed a tree to retrieve the magpie's nest. But their attention was
quickly drawn back to the story, as José, the barman, continued, "Botoque
tossed the first egg to the Indian, but as it fell through the air, it changed
into a stone. Neither noticed that the egg had become a stone until it reached
the ground. The Indian stared at the stone at his feet and looked up at the
startled youth." "‘Throw the other egg down,' the Indian ordered," called out one
of the helpful customers at a nearby table who had overheard the beginning of
the tale, proud to show he knew the details of the old legend. Their attention
caught by the exchange, other customers turned to listen in as well. José saluted the middle-aged man and continued, "This time, Botoque
carefully tossed the second egg, but again it transformed into a white stone in
front of his eyes. This stone wounded the hand of the surprised Indian below and
he angrily blamed Botoque for his injury. Furious because he believed he had
been fooled, the Indian broke the pole and left Botoque atop the rocky cliff.
Botoque screamed after him in fear and held up the baby birds from the nest. He
called out…" "Here are the little ones! Come back! This must be an enchanted nest!
Those stones were eggs," another, more youthful, customer called out with
exaggerated tones signifying Botoque's fear at being abandoned. Jim rolled his
eyes as he relaxed with the whimsical story, leaning comfortably on the bar and
willing to let the show play out in its own good time. He glanced at his partner
and grinned to see that Blair was right into it, leaning forward, eager to hear
more. José laughed at the antics of his local customers, pleased that they were
joining in to bring the story to life. But, in the spirit of the tale, he
sobered as he leaned confidentially toward Blair and carried on with a sombre
tone and a woeful shake of his head. "The Indian," he recounted,
"did not turn back to see what happened next, but if he had, he would have
seen the pair of adult red-billed macaws return. When the parents discovered
what Botoque had done to their nest, they screamed fiercely. With this, the
nestlings suddenly turned into mature birds. They flew up to meet their parents,
and all four birds disappeared into the flaming sunset." Sighing, his tone bleak, befitting the mood of the story at that point, José
confided to his Americano customers, "Botoque remained abandoned on top of
the huge rock for several days. He saw no one and spoke not at all. The poor,
abandoned boy became so hungry and thirsty that he ate what was left of the
nest." Blair wrinkled up his nose at that idea and Jim couldn't completely
choke back his chuckle of amusement at his partner's reaction. José cut Jim a look of shared good humour at the younger man's obvious
engagement in the story, but then continued, his tone rising in something like
awe as he said, "Finally, a spotted jaguar passed by, carrying a bow and
arrow and all sorts of fresh raw game. The Jaguar wore finely woven vines
coloured with red dye from annatto seeds, and he stood upright. His bearing and
manners were more civilized than any creature Botoque had ever met. Botoque
almost cried out, but he stopped himself in fear of the unfamiliar creature. The
Jaguar, walking along the edge of the sheer granite cliff, saw the boy's shadow
on the ground. Playfully, he pretended to try to catch the shadow, but it kept
moving as Botoque tried to stay out of sight. The Jaguar looked up suddenly and
caught a glimpse of the creature high upon the cliff to which the shadow
belonged. In a pleasant tone, the Jaguar asked Botoque his name." "I am Botoque. My tribesman talked me into capturing some birds for him,
but then he left me stranded," the helpful young Mexican chimed in on cue,
having taken Botoque's role as his own. "The Jaguar laughed," José continued quickly, jealous of his role
as narrator, "as he was very accustomed to the macaws' enchanted ways. But
he felt pity for the hapless boy and helpfully offered to cut footholds in the
stone so the boy could climb down. The Jaguar was older and grandfatherly, so
when he encouraged Botoque to come down, the youth started to do so. However, as
Botoque drew closer to the Jaguar, he saw how big the creature was, and he
became afraid. The Jaguar understood Botoque's hesitation, and he coaxed the
youth in a friendly way, promising him assistance." Blair had turned to Jim and mouthed, "Old, huh?" and gave his friend a cheeky grin, before turning his attention back to José.
Jim just shook his head and kept listening. So far, the Jaguar sounded like the hero of this story and that suited him just fine.
Neither of them had missed the references to the Jaguar's skills as a hunter or his unusually keen sight. "Come down and climb onto my back," yet another customer called out eagerly, an old, wizened man with lanky white hair, who was
gratified that this story was still so well remembered. "I will take you to my dwelling where there will be lots of grilled
meats." "The youth asked what grilled meat was," José told them then,
"since in his tribe he had only eaten meat raw or dried from the sun." "You have a delicacy awaiting you at my home," the old man growled,
in a low and friendly way, getting into his assumed role as the Jaguar. "An
entire boar roasted by the fire from a burning jatobá tree." José nodded in acknowledgement, and continued, his voice light as he picked
up the pace now that they were in happier territory. "Eagerly the boy
completed his descent and when they approached the Jaguar's cave, he saw fire
for the first time. An enormous tree trunk was aflame and smoking and everywhere
small gatherings of rocks the size of coconuts bordered pieces of tree trunk
bursting with flames." "What are the plumes of orange dancing light near your cave?"
called out the young man who had taken on the role of Botoque in this impromptu
recital. The old man got up and ambled with a grace that belied his years toward the
youth, mimicking the Jaguar as he held out a piece of the sausage from his
dinner plate, offering the succulent meat with an air of generous good humour,
"Taste this roast boar, my young son. It has a tenderness you're not
acquainted with and a smokiness from the fire that cooks it." The young man, well into his part by now, took the sausage delicately and
nibbled at it, his face coming alight with surprised delight as he then quickly
shoved the whole piece into his mouth and chewed on it blissfully before
swallowing with a dramatic flair. "That's the best thing I've ever
tasted!" he exclaimed. José resumed the story as he revealed, his voice dropping to convey
distaste, "Off to the side of the dancing flames stood an Indian woman whom
the Jaguar introduced as his wife. Botoque knew that she took an immediate
dislike to him because of the suspicious look in her eyes." The young man
recoiled from the woman at his table, who glared playfully at him, feigning
disgust as she snapped, "Me-on-bra-tum." "Which means 'abandoned one'" José clarified. "His wife
indicated to the Jaguar that the boy should not be trusted. But, despite his
wife's protests, the Jaguar wanted to adopt Botoque because he liked the boy
very much and the boy had already grown fond of the elderly Jaguar." The old man who'd taken on the part of the Jaguar turned to his ‘wife' and
growled, "I have no children of my own, and, especially because he is
abandoned, I want to share my home with Botoque." She sniffed in haughty
disdain and turned away. Jim was aware that Blair had gone still, and the detective suspected his
friend was thinking about how Ellison had taken the younger man into the loft
and ended up giving him a home for more than three years. Jim took another sip
of his beer, his eyes narrowing as he began to wonder where this story was
going. While José narrated the action, the young man and his date, now playing the
‘wife', pantomimed the action, occasionally adding their own vocabulary.
"Botoque was young and starving with hunger and didn't know enough to eat
and drink sparingly. So, after Botoque had eaten his fill, he drank until he
became sick. At the Jaguar's behest, his wife tended to him during the night,
but when the old Jaguar slept late the next morning, and she was alone with the
boy the next day, she tried to scare him. She picked lice out of his hair and
told him the lice would crawl all over his body if he stayed in the cave. She
opened her mouth wide and bared her teeth, telling him stories of wild animals
in the Jaguar's cave." The young man screamed out in terror, making both Blair and Jim jump in
surprise, and the old man mimicked the motions of waking from a deep sleep, and
then growled, "Stop tormenting the boy!" José continued, his voice now taking on an edge as he recounted the terrors
of Botoque's life when he was left to the mercy of the Jaguar's wife while his 'actors'
carried on their pantomime. "Every day, the Jaguar went hunting, leaving
his stepson with his wife. Her hatred for Botoque grew and grew. When the boy
asked for something to eat, the old woman gave him tough, bad-tasting meat. She
scratched his face and eyebrows, pretending she was searching for lice. Things
became so unpleasant for Botoque that every day he would leave the cave in
terror and flee into the woods to hide from her until the Jaguar returned
home." Shaking his head, José paused to deal out more cervasas, his customers
helping as they passed them around, everyone eager for the story to continue.
Blair cut a quick glance at Jim to see how his friend was taking the story and
their unusual evening's entertainment. His tongue firmly planted in his cheek,
Jim quirked a brow and shrugged. But he couldn't help but wonder how Carolyn
would have reacted if they'd still been married and he'd brought Sandburg and
his ape, Larry, home to stay in the spare room. Once everyone was served, José carried on, "The good Jaguar scolded his
wife but since she still continued to mistreat Botoque, the Jaguar made a new
bow and arrow and gave them to his stepson. The Jaguar taught Botoque how to use
the weapon because he feared that his wife might harm the boy. The boy had never
seen a bow and arrow before the day the old Jaguar rescued him because the
Indians hunted only with spears. And, although he did not want his stepmother to
continue tormenting him, Botoque was uncomfortable with the new weapon." When the barkeep paused to take a sip of his own beer to moisten his dry
throat, Jim studied his best friend, thinking about how he'd recently taught
Blair how to use his weapon-and how Blair had almost grimly persevered until he
was a crack shot, but had not yet, and might never, become comfortable with the
idea of ‘carrying'. "Finally, Botoque became so homesick for his village that he went to his
stepfather and asked to return home." José sighed, shaking his head.
"The old Jaguar felt saddened, but he understood. The Jaguar collected a
feast of grilled meats and put them in a basket the boy could wear astride his
back. He warned Botoque not to tell any of the Indians about the existence of
fire, and then the Jaguar sent Botoque on his way." Blair blew out a breath and leaned back from the bar, crossing his arms in an
unconsciously defensive stance. His move into his own apartment, and the party
Jim had thrown him, had taken place just over a month before. And the need to
keep the Jaguar's secret resonated uncomfortably with both partners. "Darkness lay over Botoque's old village like a mat of dense hemp,"
José continued, his voice low and furtive. "Botoque had to feel his way
along the walls of the communal house to his mother's hammock. When he found
her, he had a hard time convincing her that he was alive. She had missed her son
so very much, and was so afraid that he'd been lost to her, that she had fallen
into a deep grief. Now she was stunned and overjoyed to have him back. At the
sound of her glad cries, all the people of the village awakened and gathered
together, to listen as Botoque told his tale. He distributed the grilled meats
for all to taste. The village was astonished as they shared the delicious cooked
meats the youth had brought to them from his stepfather, the Jaguar." Blair couldn't look at Jim. This was just too eerie. A mother afraid her son
was drifting away from her, overjoyed to think he might be returning to the
world he'd known. A crowd of people, excited, eager for details. Closing his
eyes, he shook his head, thinking of how the Jaguar had unconsciously, out of
his generous desire to help, had unwittingly revealed evidence of his secret and
swallowed as he thought of how often Jim had done the same at a crime scene. The
sharing of the cooked meats a tantalizing sample of unknown wonders, too exotic
and amazing to ignore, like excerpts of a paper that fuelled the avid
imagination and speculation of the news media. Feeling a sudden chill, Blair
wasn't sure he wanted to hear any more of this story. Jim's eyes had dropped to
study the bar, his jaw tight. "When the villagers questioned Botoque about the roasted meats, he
resisted revealing the Jaguar's secret of fire," José was saying,
oblivious to his customers' increasing discomfort and unease. Blair cut Jim a
look and knew Jim's thoughts were paralleling his own from the frown on his
friend's face and the wary look in the Sentinel's eyes. José's voice carried
on, relentless, as he explained, "Instead, he tried to distract them by
demonstrating the bow and arrow. Although the Indians were intrigued, they
returned to the subject of the delicious cooked meats. Finally the pressure from
his family and the village elders was too much for Botoque. He told them about
fire, about its magical light and great warmth. The villagers grouped together
in the shaman's meetinghouse and after much discussion they agreed to steal the
fire from the Jaguar. They devised a plan to bring the fire back with as little
danger as possible." "The next day, two of the Indians accompanied Botoque to the Jaguar's
cave. Other Indians followed and took up stations at various locations along the
way in order to relay the fire back to the village. When the three Indians
arrived at the cave, the Jaguar, as predicted, had already gone out hunting.
They found no trace of the stepmother, and Botoque explained that the Jaguar
probably had exiled her for her cruelty towards Botoque. The Indians marvelled
at the beauty and power of the dancing plumes Botoque told them was the
fire." Blair closed his eyes, moaning low in his throat, so softly that no one but
Jim could hear him. Concerned, Ellison reached out to grip his shoulder. What
had happened over the dissertation hadn't been Blair's fault. He
had never told the secret-but Jim knew Sandburg still carried a load of guilt
over ever having written the paper in the first place. Oblivious, José continued, "But more powerful than the beauty of the
fire was its warmth. The villagers had never experienced this feeling from
anything on earth. Until that moment, they had believed that only the
magnificent sun in the skies could provide such a sensation." All of the locals were now caught up in acting out the story as José
recounted it, playing the parts of the villagers who had raided the Jaguar's
lair as the bartender carried on with his narrative, "They found the game
of the hunt from the day before and Botoque saw that it was raw. He was certain
that his mean stepmother had been sent away; otherwise she would have roasted
the meats. The Indians were so excited, they immediately cooked the raw meat and
ate it. Once all the roasted meat was eaten, the two Indians wanted to start
taking the fire back to the village. Botoque resisted again, however, he was not
strong enough to withstand the arguments of the two older Indians with him. How
could he deny his mother and all the villagers warmth, cooked meats, and light
to protect against the danger of darkness?" Blair shifted and turned his wide gaze up to Jim's, asking for forgiveness
that Ellison didn't feel he could give-how could you forgive someone for
something they hadn't done? Sandburg hadn't expected his mother to invade his
privacy, especially after having refused her request to read the paper. He
couldn't know that she'd send it to an editor in New York. He hadn't been the
one who had over-reacted when the secret had become public, who had betrayed
their friendship with cold behaviours and rejection. To the contrary, Blair had
done all he could to clean up the disaster others had made, had done more than
Jim would have ever asked or expected. Shaking his head, hoping Sandburg
understood there was nothing to forgive, Jim turned his gaze back to José. "Once Botoque and the other Indians set about collecting all the burning
tree trunks at each hearth, they then relayed the burning trunks, even the
embers, to the Indians posted at their stations along the way back to the
village. The Indians were so thorough, not a single ember was left behind." Sandburg hung his head as José told them with solemn sorrow, "Nothing
was left for the Jaguar." The old man mimicked the actions of one heading home, light-hearted, until he
reached the mouth of his cave, while the others carried on as joyous villagers. "That evening, Botoque's village celebrated the end of cold darkness at
night. They grilled fresh meat to share with all the villagers, and danced and
slept by the warmth of the fire." The old man stopped ambling around the fringes of the bar, moving back to
centre stage as he played out the reactions of The Jaguar as the unhappy tale
continued to unfold. "When the Jaguar returned home, his sweetness and generosity were
twisted into anger. He felt betrayed by his stepson. He had openly shared with
Botoque the secret of the bow and arrow, and he assumed the boy would tell the
villagers. Yet the trusting Jaguar never suspected that his adopted son would
steal the fire. The old Jaguar was so incensed by the ingratitude of Botoque, he
suddenly transformed from the civilized creature he had always been into a
ferocious animal. The vine he tied around his waist when he went hunting
sprouted into a tail. Fur grew all over his body, and he could only walk on all
fours." The old man, limber for his age, dropped to his knees and began to stalk around the bar, his demeanour stealthy and threatening
as he glared at 'Botoque' and the 'villagers'… "As night wore on, the Jaguar began to feel the cold. Without the fire, he would need his new fur to keep warm. His anger
escalated. He raged up and exclaimed…" José was saying only to be cut off when the old man roared, "If this is the way the Indians
want it to be, from now on I will devour them. I will hunt in the dark. I will feel the cold, and when I encounter
the Indians, I will eat them raw." Sighing dramatically, José finished the sad story of kindness betrayed, "All that remained of the fire for the Jaguar is his
remembrance of it and to this day, that memory shines in his eyes. Once so civilized, the Jaguar now hunts with his fangs and eats
only raw meat. The Jaguar's good and civilized spirit was corrupted by Botoque's betrayal, and the mighty Jaguar has trusted no
one since." "Jesus," Blair sighed as he swallowed hard. "You see, Señors," José explained then, "The story of Botoque and the Jaguar has come down to us from our ancestors and is told
throughout this area. Way back at the beginning of time, the Jaguar was more civilized in his ways than the Indian. He had
possession of fire, knew about eating cooked meat, and was able to hunt for his prey with ease by using the bow and arrow. He
stood erect, his body was not covered with fur, and he could talk. The Indians at that time knew only darkness and cold at night,
ate their meat raw, and hunted with spears and rocks." Shaking his head as he gathered up their empty beer glasses, he concluded,
"The Indians' ancient acceptance of animals as equal or better than themselves is shown by the Jaguar's relationship with Botoque.
He saved Botoque, adopted him as a son, and showed the boy a new weapon and the existence of fire. But, when his fire was stolen,
the Jaguar abandoned his civilized ways in order to retaliate against the human race that had betrayed him. The jaguar is now the
most feared animal of the rain forest, and the Indians use this myth to explain the origin of the jaguar's ferocity, which sets
him apart from the other animals. So, now you know the tale behind the name of my taverna…" The other customers clapped enthusiastically and ordered another round, a distraction both Jim and Blair welcomed as they
pulled out their wallets to pay for their beers. The taking in of a young stranger in need of help, the betrayal of the secret,
Jim's reluctance to trust, Alex's ferocity and murderous nature, her spotted jaguar spirit guide-there were too many echoes in the
old folktale that resonated uncomfortably with their own experiences. "It's just a story, Chief," Jim said quietly. "Yeah," Blair grunted as he bit his lip and pushed his hair back
behind his ears. When José came back to them with their change, Sandburg
thanked the man for having shared the old tale. "It was really…
interesting. Uh, do you know other stories, or could you maybe suggest someone
we might talk with to hear more tales of the Jaguar?" José beamed with pleasure, grateful as well for the generous tip. Not many
Americanos were interested in the old stories. "My old mother told me the
story of Botoque and the Jaguar. There're other stories, sure, and I think she'd
be glad to tell them to you…" Summoning up his enthusiasm, honestly interested in learning more-after all,
that's why they'd come-Blair eagerly asked how they might best approach José's
mother. Smiling, the man waved at them to wait while he went to the old black
phone with a rotary dial on the wall and called to make the arrangements. Coming
back to them, he gave them the directions to his mother's cottage, and told them
she would expect them the next afternoon. ******************** As they ambled back to their hotel, Jim asked quietly, "Did you find that story as odd as I did, Chief?" Shaking his head, Blair replied with a slight tone of exasperation, "I can't believe how unprofessional I was back there,
listening like some guy caught up in a ghost story or something, as if it was personal. To be honest, I've seen some similar
stories in the oral history records of South American tribes. This is exactly why I wanted to come down here, Jim. Local tales
like that one, featuring the jaguar, which might well be a metaphor for the watchman, or guardian, or sentinel of the tribe,
provide substantial evidence that sentinels once existed here…" "Oh, come on," Jim argued, more to pull Sandburg's chain than in real doubt, "isn't that a bit far-fetched? The story was about
acquiring fire…" "No, it wasn't, not really," Blair replied, turning to look up at
his friend with earnest conviction. "The jaguar is the symbol of the
sentinels-we know that, or at least can surmise it, from the stone plinth we
found in the jungle near the beach, and from the statuary you told me about at
the Temple. I mean, as if we didn't already know it from the fact that your
spirit guide is a jaguar, as was…hers." Turning back toward the hotel,
continuing to pace along the dark, narrow street, he continued, "The Jaguar
in the story was an accomplished hunter who lived apart from the tribe, as
sentinels lived apart. The Jaguar was helpful, and demonstrated his protective
instinct by rescuing the kid and taking him home. And, the Jaguar had talents,
skills, knowledge the rest of the tribe didn't have, as represented by the bows
and arrows and the fire. Ultimately, his skills, the sharing of his knowledge,
helped keep the tribe well fed, safe and warm." "Like anyone needs a fire to keep warm in this heat," Jim snorted, swiping at the sweat on his brow. "I don't know, Jim," Blair reflected. "This area could be hit
by hurricanes, and the cold rain and dampness would present a danger-they might
well value fire in such circumstances." "If they could keep it going in such a storm," Jim mumbled. "Whatever," Blair grunted, waving off the distraction. "The
point is, the Jaguar, or the sentinel, lived apart and was protective by nature.
But his trust was betrayed, and when he was betrayed, he reacted with
understandable fury. Instead of protector, he became a predator. Now, that might
be a simple caution to show respect to your local sentinel, or it might be a
warning that sentinels from other tribes could be very dangerous, even
deadly." "Well, it's all very interesting, Chief, but I'm not sure what it means for us now, today," Jim sighed. "As a minimum, it tells us that sentinels existed in this area, might
still exist for all we know," Blair retorted, cutting a hard look up at
Jim. "And it confirms that sentinels in traditional settings played a role
not all that much different from the role you play. Special skills as a hunter,
protective, living privately but willing to share his home with someone in need,
safeguarding some secrets for safety reasons and not easily given to trust,
furious when his trust was betrayed… sure sounds like someone I know." Jim snorted, but laid a hand on Sandburg's shoulder as he said, "Yeah,
maybe. But the guy I took in never betrayed me…" "Not deliberately, anyway," Blair replied quietly, his head bowed by old regrets. "Never deliberately, Jim." ****************** The next morning, Jim woke sharply with a muted grunt of protest. Nightmares,
vague and disturbing images he hadn't been able to hold onto in the light of
day, had been plaguing him ever since the details of the trip had been
finalized. But this time, he remembered the distorted, kaleidoscope of
fragmented dreams, and the memories nauseated him, leaving him gasping for air.
Willing himself to take deep breaths, telling himself they were only dreams, he
swallowed hard and rubbed his hand over his face. As he came more awake, he
found his headache wasn't any better. He felt uncomfortable in his skin, a
little too ‘touchy-feely' as Sandburg would so indelicately put it, and the
heightened awareness combined with a gut-deep sense of anticipation was more
than a little distracting-it was downright disturbing. It didn't help that
Sandburg was watching him closely from the other bed, apparently having been
awakened by Ellison's nightmare. Concerned, Blair wanted to know how Jim was
feeling, if the peculiar ambiance of Sierra Verde and whatever it meant to
sentinels of old was affecting him on this trip as it had on the last. Sighing,
Ellison gritted his jaw and shook his head, uncertain of how to describe his
feelings, let alone the hideous nightmares, so he opted for silence until he had
a better handle on what was going on with his senses. Exasperated, perfectly aware that Jim was being less than forthcoming, Blair
gave him a couple of Tylenol and suggested he just take it easy. And then the
younger man headed out with his camera to take snaps of the ancient stone jaguar
in the forest, the beach and the sign over the taverna, to go with the notes
he'd made in his journal the night before when they'd gotten back from the bar.
A professional observer of other people, the anthropologist paid little heed to
his own sense of heightened sensitivity, and put his feelings of anticipation
down to the excitement of learning more about sentinels. The combination of
Jim's experiences here, Alex's visions, what had happened between them on the
beach and in the Temple, the Temple itself, the stone statue and the folktales
all combined to convince him that this had been a sacred place of ritual and
power, central to the reality of sentinels in years long past. As he wandered the small town, watching for any other references to watchmen,
guardians or sentinels, Sandburg wasn't surprised to see the remains of more
stone plinths of stylized jaguars; most of them around what would have been the
old boundaries of the beach. Nor were the various signs that sported jaguars
over businesses, like an old inn, another bar, and a couple of restaurants,
unexpected. He finished a roll of film and stopped by a pharmacy to buy a goodly
supply, knowing he'd be taking lots more pictures once he finally got to the
ancient temple. By the time he was making his way back to the hotel to meet Jim
for lunch, he was struggling to understand what it was about the area, what
quality of air or scent, or maybe vibrations from the earth itself, that
triggered a sentinel's responses-or if it was some kind of genetic memory-or
some other mystical element that was beyond the normal realm of modern science. But even as open and accepting as Sandburg was, it was disconcerting to
reflect on the parallels between the folktale they'd heard the night before and
their own experiences. Were they caught in some kind of repeating pattern? Were
the stories cautionary tales they needed to pay attention to and learn from?
Folktales, fables, myth and legend often held kernels of truth, core messages
about life and the foibles of man-one ignored them at one's peril. It made sense
to him that sentinels shared a heritage of experience, driven as they were to
protect, even to serve, but also essentially wary as they had to face unknown
and often life-threatening dangers. Trust and betrayal would be huge issues for
sentinels, an ingrained and instinctive suspicion central to their survival.
Jim's wariness, his suspicious nature and his tendency to react immediately to
any potential threat of betrayal could well be hard-wired into his psyche, as
much a part of his genetic heritage as the senses themselves. Blair had always
suspected as much, and the folktale about Botoque and the Jaguar reinforced his
intuitive analysis that had long helped him to not take some of Jim's often
unconsciously hurtful behaviours too personally. Running his fingers through his hair in impatience, wishing he knew more,
understood more, Blair was only too well aware that what had happened to Jim
with Alex the last time he'd been in Sierra Verde might well be some kind of
mystical experience. Anyone who saw spirit guides, a dead shaman, saw visions
and could bring someone back from death was operating on a mystical plane,
however much Jim didn't want to talk about it or even acknowledge it. Sighing,
Blair had to admit he'd had his own experiences with the mysterious, having also
seen his spirit guide in a jungle that existed nowhere on this earth, not to
mention talking with archangels and being the guy who had literally been brought
back from the dead. Curious by nature, and very open and accepting of
transcendental experiences that went well beyond the realm of reason, Blair
wasn't uncomfortable with the idea that the mysterious was at work here-only
frustrated that he didn't understand it better and couldn't help Jim find some
measure of acceptance that this was beyond any man's normal control. As much as any of us can control anything, he thought sardonically as
he entered the hotel and headed toward the coffee shop where he'd agreed to meet
Jim for lunch. ******************** "Come in, come in!" the old woman encouraged them with warm
hospitality. She was tiny-not quite reaching Blair's shoulder-and wizened by
age. The lines of a life well-lived made her brown face a map of wrinkles, and
her grey hair was tied in a prim knot on the back of her head. But, despite her
great age, her eyes were bright with life and intelligence as she peered up at
them through old spectacles. "Señora Alvarez," Blair replied with a bright smile. "Thank you for agreeing to see us. I'm Blair Sandburg and this is my
friend, Jim Ellison." "Ah, I'm glad to meet the both of you," she returned with a warm
smile of her own, waving off his thanks as she turned to lead the way from the
door to her small, cluttered living room. "José told me you are interested
in hearing the old stories about the Jaguar. Not many people are today, so I'm
pleased to share them with you." She gestured them toward an old but comfortable sofa, fashioned in wood and
covered with thick pillows decorated by a faded print of the jungle. Colourful
wall hangings of knotted strands of red, yellow and orange wool gave life and
warmth to the plain, whitewashed adobe walls and an old braided oval rug in
shades of brown and beige decorated the hardwood floor. Easing herself down into
a rocker, she reached for a teapot on the sturdy table beside her to pour three
cups. She passed the beverage to them and then handed them a small brightly
coloured ceramic plate of cookies that were obviously homemade and still warm
from the oven. Both men were touched by the careful preparations she'd made to
welcome them, especially as it was clear from the worn furnishings and her own
faded, simple house dress that she likely didn't have a lot of money for
entertaining strangers. "So, you want to hear about the Jaguar," she began, looking at both
of them with a sharp, perceptive gaze. "Do you mind telling me why?"
Though she spoke with the musical Mexican accent, like her son she was obviously
very fluent in English. "Not at all," Blair replied easily as he set his glazed pottery mug
on the coffee table. "I'm an anthropologist and I've long been interested
in the old myths of the watchmen or guardians of the tribes. Sometimes they are
called sentinels. Anyway, in my experience, folktales are a form of oral history
that can reveal otherwise lost information about peoples and their cultures from
long ago…" "I see," she nodded sagely as her gaze shifted to Jim, studying him curiously as if she felt she should know him. "And are you
an anthropologist as well?" "No, uh, I'm a detective," Jim replied, shifting a little to drape one arm across the back of the couch. "Blair and I work
together. He's a special consultant to the police department in Cascade, Washington-a forensic anthropologist." Something flickered in her eyes as she gazed from one to the other, and then
she nodded a little to herself, as if that brief and inadequate explanation made
sense more than it raised other questions. Blair relaxed, as she seemed
unperturbed by the idea that a forensic anthropologist would be interested in
ancient stories of long ago myths. "Well, let's see," she murmured to herself as she gazed from one
man to the other, "I thought I might tell you two stories this
afternoon." Leaning back in her chair, rocking slightly, she added,
"The Jaguar has been important to my people throughout the ages, as have
the sentinels you spoke of. This was once a very sacred place, a gathering place…but
then, I suspect you already know that…" When both men dropped their gaze, she smiled softly and nodded again as if
unsurprised. Leaning forward a little, recapturing their attention, she warned
them, "These are not happy stories, but they hold lessons for those who
will listen and learn." Satisfied that they were an attentive audience, she began, "The first
story is about the Jaguar and the Deer." Blair pulled his notebook out of his backpack to take notes as she spoke,
while Jim settled back to listen. "One day, a Deer went to look for a place to build himself a
house," she told them, her voice low and melodious. "And, as it
happened, there was also a Jaguar who was out looking for a place to set up a
house. He came to the same place the Deer had chosen, not knowing the Deer had
chosen it already, and thought he would build there. The next day the Deer came
and thoroughly cleared the ground with his antlers. Later, after the Deer had
left, the Jaguar came and said, ‘It seems somebody is helping me.' Then he
stuck some big poles in the ground and set up the framework. The next day, the
Deer came back and when he saw the work that had been done, he said, ‘It seems
somebody is helping me.' Then he covered the house with branches and made two
rooms, one for him and the other one for whomever was helping him." She paused to sip at her tea, watching them to see what they thought of the
story so far. Jim looked a little bemused as he commented wryly, "I
wouldn't peg a jaguar and a deer for roommates." Chuckling softly, she continued, "When the Jaguar saw that the house was
finished, he went into one room and fell asleep. The Deer came later and went to
sleep in the other room. Neither had any idea of who was sharing the small home
with him. Until, one day the two came home at the same time. When they saw each
other, the Jaguar asked the Deer, ‘Was it you who was helping me?' The Deer
answered, ‘Yes, it was me.' Then the Jaguar said, ‘Let's live together.' ‘Yes,
let's live together in the same house,' said the Deer. They went to sleep and
the following morning the Jaguar said, ‘I'm going hunting, so sweep the floor,
prepare wood and water, because I'll be hungry when I come back.'" "Man, does that sound familiar," Blair teased and ducked as Jim
playfully clipped him on the back of the head. So far, this story sounded more
cheerful than the one they'd heard the previous evening, and since it didn't
sound as if the Jag was going to eat Bambi, they both figured the story couldn't
end too badly. When Señora Alvarez looked at them in confused, if amused, tolerance at
their antics, Jim explained, "We, uh, used to share an apartment." "Really," she mused, her smile broadening. Pinning Ellison with a
straight look, she ventured, "I wouldn't peg the two of you as
roommates." Both men laughed, well used to the fact that people were often surprised by a
friendship between two such visibly disparate men, and encouraged her to go on
with her story. She did, but her own smile faded away as she related what
happened next. "The Jaguar went to the woods to hunt and got a very large deer. He
brought it home and said to his companion, ‘Let's eat what I have
caught.'" "Ouch," Blair murmured. "That was a little insensitive." "Hmm," she murmured, nodding in agreement, watching them closely as
she carried on. "But the Deer didn't want to eat; he was very much afraid.
He couldn't sleep all night long on account of fear. Early the next morning he
went to the woods and met a very large jaguar. Later he met a large bull and
said to him, ‘I met a jaguar who was bad-mouthing you.'" "I can see where this is going," Jim muttered, grimacing when Blair
shushed him. "The bull went looking for the jaguar and found him resting," she
continued. "The bull came up to him slowly, leaped on top of him and gored
him. The Deer returned after the bull had wandered off, and dragged away the
carcass of the dead jaguar. When he got home, he said to his companion, ‘Let's
eat what I have caught.'" "Oh, now that was nice," Jim observed sarcastically. "Tit for tat," Blair intervened, impatient to hear the end. Sighing, Señora Alvarez told them the last of it. "The Jaguar looked at
the dead animal, and he didn't want to eat; he was very frightened. That night
he couldn't sleep thinking about the Deer killing jaguars; and the Deer couldn't
sleep thinking about the Jaguar killing deer. Both were very frightened. At
midnight, as the Deer moved his head, his antlers struck the wooden walls of the
house. The Jaguar and the Deer were frightened by the noise, and both of them
ran out of the house without stopping. And so the Deer and the Jaguar each went
his separate way." Finished with her first tale, she sat back to see if
they had any comment. Blair was frowning into the distance, his gaze troubled. Jim was watching
Blair, and thinking about how Sandburg had wanted, even needed, to move
out-because he hadn't felt ‘respected'. A saddened look deep in his eyes, he
dropped his gaze. "Well, I guess that story is mostly about the importance of learning to
communicate," Sandburg said quietly, turning his gaze back to the old
woman. "I think it's about showing one another respect," Jim muttered,
earning a startled look from his partner. "I think you're both right," the Señora offered. "Two very
different beings can, perhaps, live compatibly, but it does require respect and
communication to understand one another. Sadly, in this story, neither the
Jaguar nor the Deer won-they both lost their home and possibly the opportunity
for friendship." "At least they didn't eat one another," Jim observed. "They
each came out of the story whole." "Did they?" she challenged. "Or were they both somehow less
for having parted in fear? Worse, in a failure to communicate, to understand and
respect one another, might their fear be not only for one another but also for
all of their respective kind? Will their parting lead to prejudice? Might they
even hunt one another one day?" Jim's gaze narrowed, and pinched the bridge of his nose, wishing his headache
would let up. Relationships at the best of times weren't his strong suit, and he
found these metaphorical stories disturbing, even irritating. Why couldn't
people just come out and say what they meant? Like I'm a master of expressing
my thoughts and feelings, he thought with sudden sarcastic self-abasement. Blair was thinking that though the Jaguar might have acted insensitively, it
was the Deer that had acted out of malicious forethought and spite. Somehow, the
observation made him feel uncomfortable. "Maybe," he ventured
uncertainly, "if the story is a metaphor for sentinel relationships, it's
about trying to understand that the sentinel, while perhaps brusque and even
thoughtless at times, means no harm. And even though he is a ferocious hunter,
he can be vulnerable, even to such an apparently harmless creature as a deer.
Or, in other words, the people he helps to shelter and feed can be dangerous to
him if he's not careful." She smiled at him, well pleased by his perceptive understanding. Nodding, she
reflected, "I've often wondered if that was part of the meaning. Sentinels
were, by necessity, lone wolves. But, they could not survive in isolation.
Alone, completely alone, they were vulnerable. So, the legends tell us that they
usually had a dear and trusted companion with them…" She noticed that
Señor Ellison unconsciously looked at the younger man, just as Señor
Sandburg's gaze lifted to look at his friend. Looking away discreetly, she rose, saying, "I'll just go make us a fresh
pot of tea before I tell you another story." "Can I help?" Blair asked, rising to his feet. But she waved him
back down with a soft, "Gracias, but no, I can manage," as she left
them alone. Sinking back down, Sandburg swallowed and then asked, "Do you think I
was wrong to move out?" Shaking his head, Jim replied quietly, "No, Chief. You had good reasons,
lots of them. But, to be honest, the way it's worked out, I don't think of you
moving out so much as I think of it as expanding the loft to give us both more
space." Blowing out a breath, Blair confided, "I'm glad you arranged that, Jim.
I don't think I would have been happy if I'd found a place on the other side of
town." "Me, either, Chief," Jim sighed, then, shrugging, his eyes narrowed
as he reflected, "You know, I'm trying hard not to personalize these
stories, but don't they seem a little too close to home?" "Well, maybe. Yeah, I guess," Blair allowed, but then added quietly
to ensure he wasn't overheard by the elderly woman in the next room, "But
they're stories that give us insight into sentinel behaviour and experience,
right? So, it makes sense that they seem to apply to our circumstances. I was
hoping we'd hear stuff like this, to give us some idea about the old ways and
practices, the ancient lessons. Like all fables, these stories are about human
behaviour and apply as well today as when they were first told." Jim scratched his cheek and nodded thoughtfully, looking up as Señora
Alvarez came back into the room. Standing, he took both his mug and Sandburg's
for a refill of the tea, murmuring, "Gracias," as he turned back to
hand a cup to Blair. "De nada," she replied with a gentle smile. "Now, are you
ready for the next story? It's about the Jaguar and the Skunk…" "The skunk?" Blair exclaimed, a little surprised at
the innocuous animal that would feature in the next tale. So far in the stories
they'd heard, the Jaguar's companions had ranged from a fairly useless and
ultimately untrustworthy boy, a frightened but malicious and devious deer, and
now a smelly, little scavenger. Didn't say much for the sentinel's ‘companion'
of old, if that's what they supposedly represented. He shifted and grimaced,
uncomfortably aware of how the parallels could all too well apply to his own
behaviour, not that he was malicious, but he could be devious…and he had moved
out. "Sounds interesting," Jim encouraged, reading Blair's expression
like an open book and casting his partner a teasing glance as he wrinkled his
nose to lighten his mood, because if he was the jaguar, well then, that meant
Sandburg was the little stinker. Blair snorted softly but didn't say anything in
reply to the wordless jibe about his socks, his candles and incense and Jim's
olfactory opinion of some of the exotic foods he used to bring into the loft. "Once there was a Gentleman Jaguar and a Lady Skunk," their hostess
began, her tones altering as she took on the voices of the characters in the
story. "Señora Skunk had a son, who was baptized by Señor Jaguar, so
Señora Skunk became his comadre. And as Señor Jaguar had baptized the little
skunk, he was Señora Skunk's compadre. One day, Señor Jaguar decided to go
looking for food and came to Señora Skunk's house. As he was unexpected, the
Lady Skunk was surprised to see him. ‘Well, compadre, what are you looking
for?' she asked the Jaguar. ‘What have you come here for?' "'Comadre, our stores of meat are running low, so I need to go hunting
for more food,' said Señor Jaguar. ‘I want my godson to come with me so that
he can learn to hunt.' "'Oh, I don't think your godson ought to go,' Señora Skunk protested,
frowning with worry. ‘He's still very small and something could happen to him.
He better not go, compadre.' "But the little skunk argued," the old woman continued. "‘No,
mother, I had better go. What my godfather says is true. I need to get some
practice, if I'm going to learn to hunt.' "‘But if you go, you'll be so far away,' protested Señora Skunk. "But the little one was adamant, and even excited, to have such an
honour as to go hunting with his godfather, the great Jaguar. And so the two,
the Jaguar and the little skunk, set off on a long walk. As they traveled,
Señor Jaguar explained to the little skunk, his godson, that they were going to
the river. All the way, the little one badgered with questions, wanting to know
what they'd do when they got there. But the Jaguar just shook his head
patiently, cautioning the little skunk to follow him so that he wouldn't get
lost-and finally they came to the river. "'This is where we're going to eat,' said Señor Jaguar to the little
skunk. 'Come on over here. I'm going to sharpen my knife,' said Señor Jaguar.
Fascinated, the little skunk watched closely, as his godfather sharpened his
claws. "'I sharpened my knife. Now you're going to be on guard, because I am
going to sleep. When you see them come, wake me up,' said Señor Jaguar. 'All
right,' said the little skunk, eager to help and to please, 'all right,
godfather.' But then Señor Jaguar cautioned him, ‘Don't wake me up if just
any little old animals without antlers come along, only when the one with big
antlers gets here. That's when you'll wake me up-and don't shout. Just be very
quiet and scratch my belly when they come. Scratch my belly, so I won't alarm
them.' "The little one nodded, his eyes wide with excitement. Bravely, he stood
watch while the Jaguar slept and then the one with the big antlers came, and the
skunk awakened Señor Jaguar. He scratched his belly, and pointed out the deer
to Señor Jaguar, who attacked the animal with big antlers." "Sounds like Señor Jaguar hasn't forgiven Señor Deer," Blair
observed wryly, though he knew the stories were not necessarily related to one
another. Still, he was having difficulty not smirking at the idea of scratching
Jim's belly to rouse him. Maybe he'd have to try that the next time his Sentinel
zoned-yeah, and then run for the hills. Amusement aside, Blair hadn't missed
that the little skunk was playing a kind of lookout or back up role, allowing
the Jaguar to rest while he kept watch. Damn, he just knew Jim was going to be
treating him to skunk jokes for the next few days-he could only hope that his
partner refrained from sharing this story with their friends back home or he'd
never hear the end of it. Ellison, for his part, contented himself with raising one brow and cutting
his partner a mock look of mingled threat and promise, as much as to say that he
knew exactly what Sandburg was thinking. But, truth be told, Jim had been a
little afraid the Jag might snap up the little stinker, sort of as an appetizer,
and was relieved the hunter was after bigger game. Señora Alvarez refrained from any comment, simply continuing on with her
story. "'All right, my godson, let's eat. We're going to eat meat,' said
the Jaguar. And so they ate and ate. 'Now, since we are full, we're going to
take whatever leftovers there are to your mother, so that she will have meat to
eat, just as we did.' When they came back to the mother's house, he told Señora
Skunk, ‘Look, we've brought you some food, the food that we hunted. Eat your
fill of the meat, comadre.' "'All right,' said the Lady Skunk, and she ate some of the meat. ‘I'm
full,' she said. "'It's good that you're satisfied. I've seen that you are, so I'll be
leaving now,' said Señor Jaguar to Señora Skunk. And so he left while the
little skunk stayed with his mother." "Hmm," Blair murmured. "If this is an allegory of a sentinel's
behaviour, it sounds like he was fulfilling his role of providing for his
tribe." The old woman nodded to him, but again she refrained from making any comment.
Intent upon concluding this story, she carried on, mimicking the voices of the
Lady Skunk and her son. "When they ran out of meat, Señora Skunk said to
her son, ‘Dear, our meat is all gone.' "'Yes, I see. I better go and get us some more food,' said the little
skunk. "'How can you, son? Do you think you're big enough? You're very small.
Don't you think you'll be killed?' asked Señora Skunk. Jim stiffened, a scowl darkening his features. He didn't like where he
thought this story was going and, unconsciously, he reached out to grip
Sandburg's shoulder. Blair could hold his own, but he invariably got into
trouble when he went after big game alone, whether intentionally like Ventriss,
or unintentionally, like Lash…and Alex. "'No, mother, I already know how to hunt, my godfather taught me how,'
replied the little skunk. And so, feeling very grown up, he left not noticing
that his mother was still very worried. Her son came once more to the river, the
place to which he had come with his godfather to get the meat. ‘This is how my
godfather did it. Why shouldn't I be able to do the same thing?' said the little
skunk. ‘This is how you sharpen a knife. I'm not going to hunt the little
animals. I'm just going to hunt the one with the great big antlers just like the
one I ate with my godfather. I have my knife here and I'm going to sleep for a
little while.' "The little skunk lay down to sleep, but then he awakened. He was waiting for the one with the big antlers, and when he came,
he attacked him, thinking he was as strong as his godfather. But even though he dug his claws in as deeply as he could, he just
barely penetrated the tough hide and hung from the neck of the one with big antlers. The one with the antlers didn't even notice
him, and he was carried far away until he grew too tired to hang on any longer and fell on his back. It was a long way down to the
hard rocky ground and he was left lying on his back with his mouth wide open." Ellison flinched as his gut twisted, his mind flooded with unbidden and unwelcome memories of his Guide lying on his back on
the wet morning grass, unmoving, not breathing. Biting his lip, he dropped his gaze from the old woman's too perceptive eyes,
wishing he didn't have to listen to any more of the story. But Blair couldn't seem to tear his eyes away from her, and he felt as if his chest was suddenly too tight to breathe. She'd
warned them that these were not happy stories, but surely-surely the little skunk-the little guide-wasn't dead! He'd
be winded sure, but how could you learn a lesson if you were dead? The Señora watched them both closely as she continued, sensing their tension, and believing she understood at least some of the
reason for it. "Since he had not come home to his mother, Señora Skunk wondered, 'What could have happened to my son? Why hasn't
he come back yet? Something must have happened to him. I better go and look for him.' And so Señora Skunk went as far as the bank
of the river. She was looking everywhere for her son, but couldn't find him. She began to cry when she found the tracks where the
one with the big antlers had come running by. "'They must have come by here,' said Señora Skunk, and began to follow the tracks. She came to the place where her son had been
left lying on his back. When the mother caught sight of him, she noticed that his teeth were showing and shouted at him, 'Son,
what are you laughing at?' But he didn't answer. Annoyed, she told him sharply when she got closer, 'Give me your hand. I've come
to get you, but you're just laughing in my face.' She put her hand on him, to shake him, but then she began to cry. The little
skunk was cold and dead." Blair stiffened, wincing when the final words were uttered, and Jim cursed softly under his breath. "I'm sorry if the story has upset you," Señora Alvarez told them, a worried look on her face. Blinking to drag his attention back from cold memories of the fountain, Blair hastened to reassure her. "Oh, no, please-we
wanted to hear your stories and you've been very kind to spend time with us today. It's just that, well, I'm surprised. I hadn't
expected that ending. I thought the little skunk would learn that he couldn't be the Jaguar, couldn't play that role," he
explained, cutting a quick look at Jim. "I mean, I understood the allegory when the skunk was keeping watch, so the Jaguar could
rest, like a companion keeping watch for a sentinel. But…" "But it's tough to think that hanging around with the Jaguar meant that the little skunk would be killed," Jim muttered, his
jaw tight. "It's not an inevitable conclusion," Blair insisted sharply, pretty certain that he knew what Jim was thinking. "Isn't it?" Ellison asked wearily, rubbing his forehead; his headache was back with a vengeance. "What other conclusion could
you get from that?" Her gaze shifting from one to the other, Señora Alvarez knew she did not fully understand the sudden tension in the room.
Cutting into the conversation, she offered, "These stories can have many meanings, and as Señor Sandburg has just said, one is
that others try to play the role of the sentinel at their peril. It is, indeed, dangerous for the companion to believe he can be
the hunter or the guardian on his own. While the companion has many skills, necessary skills, he is not a sentinel." "That's true enough," Blair sighed and found a wan smile for her. "So it's a cautionary tale." But she did not answer, her mind on other matters. Focusing her gaze on Jim, she asked, "You've been here before, haven't you?
You were one of the people who found the Temple in the jungle a few months ago." "I, uh, yeah," Jim acknowledged with a shrug. Nodding, she continued, "I thought I recognized you from the pictures in the newspaper at the time." Looking at Blair, she
observed, "But you were not here then, were you? Why did your friend come here alone?" Looking away, Sandburg told her, "I was, uh, not well at the time-in hospital." "I see," she mused. "And now the two of you have come together, to learn-to visit the Temple, si?" "Yes, well, Jim said it was a pretty interesting place, and as I said, I'm an anthropologist, so I was curious…" Blair
obfuscated. "More than just curious, I think," she cut in, having little time for half-truths. For a moment, she simply gazed at them, her
thoughts turned inward as she debated saying more. Finally, nodding a little to herself, she turned her attention back to them.
"My grandfather was a shaman," she told them then. "I learned these stories, and the myths about sentinels and their companions
from him. The old ways have gotten lost, forgotten by most, but that does not mean that sentinels never existed. Indeed, I believe
they still exist, though few hear of them any more. The two of you-you are sentinel and companion, are you not?" "Well, I, that is…" Sandburg stammered, but she waved off his attempt to explain. "You do not need to tell me your secrets or your purpose here," she said matter-of-factly. "I believe it is time for you to go
to the Temple. Perhaps you will find the answers you seek there. But-be careful, my sons. This is not a game. There is danger." "What kind of danger?" Ellison demanded, straightening as his muscles tensed. "Long years ago, this area around the Temple was a meeting place where the tribes came every two or three years," she said
then, avoiding a direct response. "It was the one place that was sacred to all, respected by all, where sentinels could come
together in safety, even in respect for one another. Here, the companions and sentinels were trained for their roles. And it was
here that sentinels chose their companions from the best that the tribes had to offer-young men who might have become shaman, but
who chose instead to follow a more rigorous and much more dangerous path and so offered themselves as potential companions." Frowning, Blair asked, "Were all the sentinels and guides, er, companions, male?" "No, sentinels might be either male or female, and very rarely, very rarely, girls might become companions. But
the companion's way is hard, even for a man. It requires endurance and a peculiar empathy, wisdom and physical strength. A girl's
role was to marry, and have many children-something impossible to do while traveling with and safeguarding a sentinel. And, the
companions, like the little skunk, faced dangers they were often not physically able to discern or avert-they did not have the
magical senses, you see? So the tribes were reluctant to risk their women…" she explained. Jim studied the old woman intently, certain that they weren't getting the whole story. "You haven't told us what dangers may
lurk at the Temple," he said bluntly. "No," she replied with a tired sigh as she stood to lead them to the door, her time with them now over. "You must go and find
the answers for yourselves. You must make your own choices. I will pray for you. I will pray that you will find your way and make
the choices that are right for you." ******************** Jim led the way through the narrow, busy streets back to the hotel, striding quickly. His headache was hammering viciously, and
he sincerely wished there might have been a way to avoid ever coming back here. Blair followed after him, skipping a little to
keep up with his best friend's longer gait. "Jim, hey, where's the fire, man?" he called out, pulling on Ellison's arm to slow him down. Fighting his impulse to shake Sandburg off, Ellison took a breath and slowed, but not by much. "She knew, didn't she?" Blair asked, and Jim understood that his partner was referring to his heightened perceptions in reading
other people. Nodding tightly, Ellison confirmed, "Yeah, it's pretty clear she saw right through us, Chief." Blowing out a breath, Blair said, "Well, I guess she's right. It's time to head out to the Temple. We'll leave first thing in
the morning." Pausing on the street, Jim turned to face his partner. "I'm not sure that's a great idea, Sandburg. If there're dangers out in
that jungle…" "I don't think she meant the usual sort of thing, Jim," Blair replied. "We're not up against bad guys here. There are things we
need to learn…" "Why?" Jim cut in, his voice rising. "Why do we have to learn anything? We've been doing fine, right? I don't see any reason to
take risks…" "What risks?" Blair retorted. "She said we'd face choices, man, that's all-just choices! We've faced lots of choices. For all
we know, there may be greater risks if we don't go out there! That would be a choice, too, dammit!" "What do you hope to learn? Why do you think this is so necessary?"
Ellison demanded, more afraid than he wanted to admit because there was no basis
for his fear. He'd been to the Temple-it was just a heap of old stone that
housed very strange pools that Jim intended to steer well away from. But his gut
was knotted and he knew the old woman was right…there were dangers of some
kind out there. Dangers he couldn't predict or prepare for…maybe dangers to
his Guide and best friend. Blair looked at him askance for a long moment, and then his gaze broke away
as if he was searching the air around them for answers. Finally, turning his
attention back to Jim, his hands raised to emphasize his words, he said,
"We keep making mistakes, Jim, both of us. Maybe it's because we don't have
any idea of what we're doing, not really. Back on the night when I moved into my
own place, I said it was time to banish the shadows. Don't you see? We have to
do this. We need to do this." Jim glared at Blair for a long moment, his jaw tight and a hollow feeling in
his gut. Danger. What could the danger be? Dammit, he couldn't just blindly go
into something that might risk…might risk Sandburg's life again. Shattered
imagery from his nightmares rose in his mind and he felt a frisson of fear
ripple through his body. But nor could he ignore the plea in the wide blue eyes that held his own.
Licking his lips, forcing himself to breathe deeply, he ran his fingers through
his short, cropped hair and then massaged the back of his neck. Finally, his
rigid posture gave way as he sagged a little in defeat. He knew if he didn't go,
Blair would go out there without him. He'd made a promise to see this through. The little skunk had died because he'd set out without the Jaguar, alone and
unprotected. "Fine," he grated. "We'll go in the morning." ******************** Knowing that they'd be heading into the rainforest to spend a week or more at
the site of the Temple and unsure of what they could rent in the village of
Sierra Verde, they'd brought some of their camping gear from Cascade, a tent
large enough for two, four canteens, some basic cooking utensils, a small kit of
medical supplies and their sleeping bags. In the morning, feeling wasted after
another night of fractured sleep and frightening visions, Jim rented an SUV to
take them as far as they could go into the jungle before they'd have to proceed
on foot, while Blair did the shopping for food. Meeting back at the hotel, Jim
dutifully called his boss to let him know that they were leaving the hotel for a
week or so, and then they loaded their packs with the supplies. After placing
their unnecessary baggage in the hotel storage, they checked out, had a quick
lunch and were on the road just after noon. The roads just outside of the village were paved, if cracked and in serious
need of repair, but before long, Jim had turned onto a side road that was little
more than a heavily rutted track. In less than an hour, even that track had
petered out to nothing more than an uneven trail, rocky in places and so heavily
grassed or thick with mud in others that they had to proceed slowly, only the
all-wheel-drive traction and the weight of the vehicle allowing them to continue
at all. It took three hours to go scarcely more than thirty miles, and much of that
was out of their way, but the route avoided bogs and marshes, areas of quicksand
that would have sucked them in without warning. Nevertheless, Jim seriously
wondered if they wouldn't have been better to walk all the way from the village
rather than try to manage with the truck. The air was heavy, thick with humidity
and the odours of the jungle were a jumbled mix of sour pungency and
sweetness-all of it combining to aggravate his continuing headache. With each
passing day since their arrival, his sense of physical discomfort had grown.
Sometimes it felt as if something was crawling under his skin, irritating and
itchy, and the hollowness in his gut had become a dull ache. His mouth and
throat were dry, as if he was in a perpetual state of excitement though what he
most felt was dread. But, as bad as the physical discomfort of being in the vicinity of the Temple
was, it was also almost a relief. On his last trip, Jim had attributed it all to
his inexplicable reaction to Alex Barnes, thinking her the cause of his bizarre
emotions and behaviour. Now he knew it was the place itself that played havoc
with his senses and left him ever-poised on the edge of arousal. Alex had been
part of it, and they'd both no doubt been caught up in sensations and visions
they didn't understand, but at least now Jim knew she wasn't the whole of it.
He'd been dreaming of the Temple-dreaming of the Eye of God. A few of the dreams
were wonderful, but most often they were horror shows of pain and terror. He did NOT want to go to the damned Temple. "Talk to me, Jim," Blair said quietly. "You look like you're
ready to chew nails." Snorting softly, Ellison shook his head. "I just don't have a good
feeling about this, Chief. I'm sorry, I know this trip is important to you-but I
think I'd rather be just about anywhere else but here." "Why?" Sandburg asked. "What is it that's bothering you so
much?" Sighing, Jim wished he were better with putting what he felt into words,
better at conveying what worried him. Shrugging, he muttered, "There's
something about the place, the air, the smells, I don't know, but it's driving
me nuts. It's like-like being on the edge of an abyss, or falling in love.
Uncomfortable. Unpredictable. Out of control. My skin itches and my senses feel
off. I can't sleep without seeing… things." "What things?" Blair pushed, thinking of Alex's visions, and Jim's
too, for that matter. "The Temple?" "Sometimes," Jim nodded. "But…" he struggled to find words, shaking his head helplessly, gritting his jaw against the
memories. "But…?" "Death," Ellison blurted, his tone harsh with impatience and irritation-and fear, as his hands gripped the steering wheel until
his knuckles were white as he fought the continuous lurching of the vehicle along the uneven earth. "I see death, all right? You
satisfied now? And devastation. Terrible, horrible images of things I can't stop or control. Like when I was in the damned grotto,
in the pool in the Temple. Flashing, fractured images that don't make any sense but that scare the shit out of me." One arm braced on the dash, Blair had turned in the seat until he was facing Jim, studying him intently, a solemn expression on
his face. "I'm sorry this is so hard for you," he said quietly. "Maybe I should have done this alone." "NO!" Ellison exclaimed, the very idea sending signals as real as flashing red warning signs along his nerve endings. "No," he
repeated, soberly. "Whatever this is about, I don't want you out there on your own." Nodding, Blair looked out at the jungle that surrounded them, the long fronds
reaching out as if to capture them as the SUV brushed by. The thick growth
formed a canopy overhead that virtually blocked out direct sunlight, leaving
everything shadowed and somehow mysterious. He chewed on his lip briefly, then
asked, "What kind of devastation? Whose death do you see?" The muscle along Ellison's jaw rippled as he clenched his teeth and fought
back the sour bile that rose in his throat at the memories of those dreams. He
shook his head, not wanting to put the images into words. "Jim," Blair prodded, again turning his earnest, wide gaze upon his
friend, though he kept one hand solidly braced on the dash to counter the jerky
motion of the truck, "we agreed that we had to talk about this stuff-that
keeping your visions and dreams secret just gets us into more trouble. You have
to tell me, man, or I can't help you." For a long moment, it seemed Ellison might guard his silence, but then he
swallowed hard and gave a single, sharp nod of acquiescence. "The, uh,
devastation is just broken images, mostly. Wild, thrashing wind, tumbling stones
and collapsing rooms, trees blown over, none of it making any sense." He
paused to cut Sandburg a quick look, and in that moment Blair saw raw pain in
his partner's eyes. Looking away, taking a breath, Jim muttered, "I see…I'm
holding…" But his throat closed, and he couldn't say it, didn't ever want to see it
again-didn't ever want to go there, didn't want to think about it or believe it
could ever be real. Sandburg sat back against the seat and turned to stare out at the jungle. "You see me…" "Yeah," Jim grated, his voice hoarse. "Not-not at the
fountain. Here, in this damned jungle." Reaching the end of the trail so
far as the SUV was concerned, Ellison stopped fighting the ruts and rocks and
brought the truck to a stop. Turning to Blair, he said with tight control,
"You want to help me with these visions? These nightmares? Then just stay
alive, okay? Just…just don't let them come true." "Trust me, Jim," Blair said, a ghost of a smile playing about his
lips, "I didn't come here to die, man." When Jim just stared at him,
finding nothing amusing in the situation, Sandburg sighed as he reached out to
grip his best friend's arm. "It'll be okay. The dreams…they're
manifestations of your anxieties, an expression of what could be possible, not
what is inevitable. If I was here alone, well, maybe then I'd be worried. But
with you here? Man, I know I'll be fine." Ellison searched his friend's eyes and saw only perfect trust and confidence
shining back at him. Slowly, he nodded, wishing he could be as confident as
Sandburg was that there was nothing to worry about. ******************** They made short work of loading up their gear and heading into the jungle,
wanting to get as close to the Temple as they could before night fell. Jim led
the way, not needing any compass or map, as he pushed through and past the thick
growth of long-leafed ferns. It was disconcerting, this sense of knowing where
they were and where they needed to go, to feel as if he'd walked this path
before, when he knew the last time he had approached the Temple from a different
direction. Fragments of visions, of memories he knew he couldn't possibly have
flitted before his eyes and he recognized some of what he'd seen in his dreams. The heat was overpowering, the humidity oppressive, made worse by the veil of
tiny insects that hovered around them in clouds, irritating their eyes and
nostrils, making them both feel itchy. Few birds called out to break the silence
of the jungle. Their packs chafed against their backs, feeling heavy and
unwieldy, and both felt tired from lack of sleep. After an hour, they called it
quits for the night and set up a simple camp in a tiny clearing near a rushing
stream. Stripping off their sweat-soaked clothing, both sighed with blissful
relief at the feel of the cool water they splashed on their skin. By the time
they'd finished a cold meal consisting of sandwiches, fruit and a litre of water
each to restore energy and fluids to their bodies, dusk had begun to fall and
they decided to make an early night of it, both hoping for a dreamless sleep. Despite their hopes, neither found it easy to succumb to sleep. Blair kept
wondering what exactly Jim had seen in his nightmares but it was clear that
Ellison had told him as much as he was going to about the visions, if that's
what they were. Finally, knowing his partner was as awake as he was, Blair
murmured quietly, "Jim, if, uh, if it turns out I was wrong to insist on
coming here, well…remember this was all my idea." Ellison sighed and rubbed a hand over his face, knowing full well what Sandburg was trying to say. "I won't let anything happen
to you, Sandburg," he replied as quietly, though his voice was rough with the vehemence of his commitment. "Maybe they're just
nightmares, no more than that." "Jim, I…" Blair began again. "Let it go, Chief," Jim replied wearily. "Just try to get some sleep, okay?" "Yeah, sure," Blair mumbled, unsatisfied but accepting that Jim wasn't prepared to talk any more that night. And his partner
was right; they both needed whatever rest they could get. Rolling over onto his side, he whispered, "You try to sleep, too.
'Night, Jim." But Ellison was afraid that sleep would only bring the nightmares back one more time…so he fought it off and maintained a
silent vigil while his partner slept, until his exhaustion over-powered his desire to remain awake and he, too, drifted off. Toward dawn, the Sentinel jerked awake, cursing silently about dreams that had been haunted again by scenes of devastation.
Swallowing, he noticed that his headache was worsening and that the air around him felt different. Looking around, alert to his
environment, he blinked to focus his sight as he noticed that a wind had begun to rustle through the jungle. High above, through
the small breaks in the leaves, he could see dark clouds scudding across the sky. Frowning, he rolled over and shook Sandburg's
shoulder, waking him. He'd heard on the news the day before that a storm was rolling in from the ocean, and had even hoped for one
to break the relentless heat and humidity, but his senses told him the air pressure was falling too fast, and that this 'storm'
might be more than the relatively tame phenomena they were used to back in Cascade. "We need to get going, Junior," he said abruptly, fighting off an eerie sense of déjà vu as dim memories of the images of a
very bad storm in his nightmares surfaced, a wild, thrashing wind and cutting rain. "There's a storm heading our way, maybe a big
one. Let's try to get to the Temple before it hits." In minutes, they had the tent folded and packed away, their gear stowed and they were loping through the jungle toward the
Temple of the Sentinels. ******************** The wind picked up as they traveled, and though much of its force was blocked
by the thick vegetation, the canopy of branches and leaves high above them was
thrashing wildly, and it was dim, almost dark, the sun evidently blocked by
heavy clouds. Jim had to dial down his hearing a notch, the dry, clacking
clatter of palm fronds whipped by the wind, and the creak of tree trunks swaying
and resisting the onslaught of the storm, were irritating and distracting. The
rain, when it came, was cold and hard, quickly drenching them to the skin and
obscuring the details of their environment, as if a curtain had been pulled to
close the world in around them. Thunder rumbled and crashed, rolling toward
them, growing louder and more threatening, until Jim had to adjust his hearing
again before the sudden, shattering sounds brought him to his knees. "Pick it up, Chief!" he called over the tumult of the storm to the
man loping close behind his shoulder. "We need to get under some
shelter!" There was a horrendous crack and crash, like an explosion, very close by, and
both men flinched unconsciously, looking up and around to see where the
lightning had hit. Jim saw the upper half of a tall palm tilt toward them,
gathering speed as it fell even as he grabbed Sandburg and threw him forward,
out of the way of the destroyed tree. They both landed heavily in the mud as the
thick trunk smashed through other vegetation, flattening all in its path as it
ploughed into the ground where Sandburg had been standing only moments before. "Whoa! Thanks, man," Blair blurted as he dragged in air, trying to
still the sudden burst of fear at the near miss before it swamped him. But Jim was already up and had grabbed his arm, dragging him forward toward
the only shelter the jungle offered. Ellison knew the Temple couldn't be far
now, and he wanted them both out of the weather before it got any worse. They
slipped and slogged through the mud and the torrential rain, half loping, half
staggering through the thrashing forest. Palms fronds whipped out at them, thin
leaves like razors slicing shallow cuts into their faces, arms and hands, until
runnels of blood mingled with the rain that soaked their clothing and chilled
their bodies. Ellison kept a tight grip on Sandburg, pushing him forward ahead
of him, desperate to get them to safety. When they finally stumbled out into the small clearing between the massive
stone pillars topped by two snarling jaguars in front of the Temple, Blair
stopped and gaped in astonishment at the size and magnificence of the ruin. But
Jim allowed him no time to enjoy his first glimpse of the ancient and mysterious
edifice, hauling him forward to scramble up the uneven, eroded stone steps made
slick by moss and rain. Thunder crashed as lightning flashed, a long threatening
flickering fork of bright power piercing the thick clouds visible over the
Temple. Wind howled and shrieked like a banshee around them, a physical force
that battered them as rain that felt like thousands of sharp pellets lashed
their faces and bodies. The air, so hot and heavy for days had become a
frenzied, screaming fury rampaging through the jungle. Ellison shoved Sandburg through the portal, the sudden shelter from the wind
and rain almost a shock as they stumbled across the chill stone of the floor. "Oh, man," Blair muttered, breathing hard as he wiped the water
from his face and shook his head, shedding droplets in a fine spray. "I
didn't hear anything about any hurricanes passing this way!" "That's not a hurricane, Junior," Jim gasped shivering a bit in the
shadowed portal as he turned to look back out at the raging storm. "That's
just a little tropical storm," he added sarcastically, thinking the weather
reports had badly underestimated the force of the gale raging around them. "Little?" Sandburg protested. "I've been in 'little' tropical storms before, Jim. That sucker's got to be almost hurricane
class. I could hardly stay on my feet." "I noticed," Jim replied, looking back over his shoulder with a sardonic grin. He felt almost giddy from having survived the
journey through the waking nightmare that was resonating too closely with the terrors of his dreams. They'd made it to shelter
intact, and the Temple would protect them from the worst the weather had to offer. They had plenty of supplies and could outlast
whatever Mother Nature threw at them-they were safe. Turning to move farther into the Temple's antechamber, he pulled his pack
from his shoulder and knelt to rummage through it. "First order of business is to get into some dry clothes. And then we need to
look around and see if there's any dry wood stockpiled anywhere inside for torches and a fire." He might have been talking to the ancient stone itself for all the attention he got. Sandburg had lifted his eyes to look
around the large entry hall, noting corridors heading off in different directions around the circumference of the rounded chamber.
His mouth was a little agape, and even in the dimness, Jim could see his eyes sparkling with avid curiosity. His pack had slid
unheeded down one arm and he was clutching it absently, his mind fully occupied with the wonder of actually being inside the
Temple of the Sentinels. Inside a myth. Inside a sacred place most in his world had given up believing had ever existed. His pack slipped to the floor and he began to move forward, slowly, squinting in the uncertain light as he tried to make out
the hieroglyphics and carvings high on the walls around them. "Sandburg!" Jim called out sharply to break into his friend's concentration. "Huh?" Blair mumbled, turning finally to gaze with an air of abstraction at Jim. "What?" Ellison threw a towel, dry jeans and a sweatshirt at his friend as he replied, his voice echoing hollowly against the
stonewalls, "Get dry first, Stinky…and then you can look around to your heart's content." "Stinky?" Sandburg groaned as he caught the bits of cloth his
partner had tossed to him. "Oh, man, I knew you wouldn't let that go…" Jim chuckled as he towelled off his hair and then began to strip out of his own equally sodden clothing. The falling,
lightning-struck tree hadn't crushed Sandburg, as it had in one of the nightmare visions that haunted him. The rain-washed smears
of blood and splatters of mud on his best friend's face looked messy but Jim knew the damage was superficial at worst, a far cry
from the mask of death he'd imagined seeing in his dreams. His little skunk was going to make it home in one piece, he thought
with decidedly cheerful relief. ******************** While Jim prowled around looking for a store of wood and set up their camp to
one side of the entrance in the round entry chamber, Blair grabbed a flashlight
from his kit and began his first, if necessarily cursory, examination of the
Temple's treasure of knowledge and artefacts. Though Ellison was wary of the
sudden crashes of thunder from outside, he dialled up his hearing enough to keep
track of his friend when he spotted Blair heading out of the hall and
disappearing down one of the dark, side corridors. Sandburg's sense of direction
was challenged at the best of times, let alone in the twisting, dark passageways
that Jim remembered from the last time he'd been within these walls. Though he
knew he could look up and easily see the small side chamber with the twin pools
where Alex had drugged him and he'd seen those hair-raising visions, he chose
not to look in that direction. The memories of what had occurred there were too
sharp to need freshening. Ellison found a store of long ago gathered sticks and logs of wood in a niche
in the wall, some of it crumbling with age, but much of it useable, so he built
a small fire and then held a pot outside to gather rainwater, to set on to boil.
He could use a coffee and he was pretty certain that Sandburg would be grateful
for a mug of tea once he came down off cloud nine long enough to notice the
chill from the damp, mould-shrouded walls. He cleared the floor around the fire
of animal and bird droppings, small bones and other residue of the local
wildlife and then spread out their sleeping bags so that they wouldn't have to
sit on the cold stone. Moments after setting another pot, this one of a
nourishing soup, over the fire, he heard a soft, muffled, and embarrassed
sounding, "Uh? Jim?" echoing from somewhere in the Temple interior
under the rumble of the thunder that still rolled overhead. Shaking his head with fond indulgence, the Sentinel stood with a smile to set off to find his evidently already lost Guide. But his amusement died stillborn when he caught the sharp, if slightly breathless words. "Snakes, Jim. The place is crawling
with snakes!" Grabbing up a long stick that was forked at one end, and one of the burning brands from the fire, Jim launched into a run as he
headed into the dark corridor. ******************** Jim raced through dark, dank corridors of stone, splashing through puddles of rain that had leaked in through crumbling stone,
skidding a little on the slick granite as he lunged around corners and up or down what seemed like endless steep steps carved from
the rock. Thunder continued to rumble and crack overhead, so he didn't dare turn his hearing up to listen for his partner's heart
beat to determine if Sandburg was all right-he couldn't risk being incapacitated if his Guide was in danger and needed him.
Ellison had not ventured this far into the Temple on his last trip, all of the action of that misadventure taking place near the
entrance and he cursed the maze of passages that wouldn't allow him a direct path to his friend. Memories warred with his rising
fear, fragments of truncated visions in his nightmares of Blair writhing helplessly in the clutches of a massive snake, a python
or anaconda…like some bad horror movie. Only this wasn't a movie or some nightmare vision. This was real. Finally, breathing hard, Ellison found himself at the top of a broad
staircase of broken stone that led down into an internal grotto with a waterfall
that splashed from out of the stone high above into a pool below. A large
section of the rim of stone that had given partial shelter to this ancient
garden, and part of the exterior wall, had long since fallen into uneven heaps
of broken rocks around the far side of the pool. Huge squared-off boulders that
individually would have weighed tons were tumbled like broken blocks, giving way
to the jungle beyond. Rain poured down from the turbulent skies, a solid wall of
water that pelted the pool and drenched the surrounding trees and shrubs. At the bottom of the staircase, just within the shelter of the remaining
stone ledge looming overhead, close enough to be splashed with the storm's
spray, a writhing mass of snakes of all sizes swarmed as they tried to escape
the deluge. And just a few steps above them, directly under the overhanging
ledge, Blair seemed to be wrestling with a long golden brown serpent that was
tightly entwined around his body and apparently distinctly disinclined to let
go. Recognizing the breed of snake from his time in Peru, Jim slowed his frightened rush as he loped down the long flight of steps
while eying the snakes further below. "Find a new lady friend, Chief?" he drawled. "Very funny, Jim," Blair giggled, as he turned his face up to his friend, and Jim was amazed to see that, far from being
afraid, Sandburg's eyes were sparkling with amusement. "Give me a hand here, big guy. He's found a warm pole to wind around and he
really doesn't want to let go. But, he hugs kinda hard, if you know what I mean, and my ribs are beginning to protest such
unabashed affection." "Chief, when you called me, I thought you were in trouble," Ellison chided as he sauntered down the steps. "Nah, I knew it's just a boa, but man, he is tenacious!" Blair snickered. "But, he's got some friends down there that I thought
you should check out. I'm pretty sure some of them are of a more poisonous nature. We may need to keep an eye out for their
relatives inside the Temple, in case any have already started to hunt up rodents for dinner." Continuing his descent down the long staircase of cracked and broken stone, slippery with moss, now that he knew Sandburg was
in no immediate danger, Jim's attention shifted back to the squirming mass of multi-coloured snakes of widely varying length and
girth, his eyes narrowing as he sorted them out. When he spotted deadly serpents in the writhing muddle on the broken stones only
a few steps below, he picked up his pace. Shifting to face Jim as he continued gently trying to unwrap his most recent admirer, Blair admitted ruefully, "I don't know
where this baby came from. I was just standing here, looking at the snakes down there and about to beat a strategic retreat when
it was, like, all over me, man." "It probably snaked down from the ledge above your head and thought you'd make a nice warm pole to cling to, Sandburg," Jim
replied with a gesture at the lip of stone above them. "I'm pretty sure he didn't have you confused with his next meal." "No, I'd doubt it. This guy is too small to swallow a man, so unless he has delusions of grandeur, I figure I'm safe," Blair
quipped back. "I've seen lots of his kind during some of the digs I've been on, and they can be pretty affectionate, uh, for
snakes." He chuckled a little as the serpent proved his point by continuing to cling to him with relentless devotion. "C'mon, Jim,
give me a hand here." He called again, increasingly amused as he laughed out loud at the snake's antics. "Yeah, yeah," Jim muttered as he used the fork-shaped stick to push
some of Sandburg's other approaching admirers further back down the steps and
then set it and the torch down to grab hold of the dry, thick but supple body
that snaked around his friend's torso. "You know, I think this guy is
seriously in love with you, Chief." Snickering when the serpent transferred its attentions to Jim, trying to wrap
itself snugly around the new source of warmth, Blair sighed dramatically,
"Just like all my former loves…fickle and with questionable taste,
especially in terms with the speed with which they abandon me for a new man. I
guess tall, strong, silent types really do hold an innate attraction." Jim just snorted, and between the two of them, they finally managed to set
the boa on the ground, Ellison hastily grabbing up his forked stick to urge the
attentive fellow further down the steps. His attention now on the mass of snakes, Blair mused, "I've never seen
snakes do that-swarm like that and get all tangled up. Why do you think they're
behaving that way?" Blair asked, warily watching the multihued snakes of
varying lengths writhing below them with clear agitation in their attempts to
get to higher, dryer ground. Some were tiny, while others looked like they were
four or five feet long, and he spotted a couple of other boas of greater length
and girth. "The rain," Jim muttered as he, too, eyed the swarming snakes
warily while he pushed the boa out of reach. "Normally, they'd be in the
jungle, but they've swarmed in here to keep from drowning in the downpour. When
the storm's over, they'll disappear again." "Easy, don't hurt them," Blair cautioned as Jim finished pushing
the boa down the steps. Sandburg nervously stepped up and away from other
potential ‘admirers'. He didn't know for sure if any of them were poisonous,
but there were some he suspected would be deadly and lots of breeds in the
swarming mass that he didn't recognize at all. In the circumstances, he didn't
think it hurt to be cautious. "Do you think they'll all try to make it up
into the Temple?" he asked uncertainly. "Oh, like you said, some have probably already found their way inside, hunting for rodents, but I don't think they are any real
danger to our camp over on the far side," Jim replied as he followed Blair up the steps. "We'll just have to keep an eye out for
them when we're exploring areas on this side, at least until the storm passes." "So do you recognise any of them? Are any of them are poisonous?"
Sandburg asked as he paused to look back down at the muddle of snakes. Nodding as he watched the squirming mass of tubular muscle, Jim replied dryly
as he pointed out a number of deadly snakes, "Oh, yeah, big time. Some of
the smaller ones are pit vipers, and there are a variety of rattlesnakes down
there-the cascabel rattlesnakes are the ones that are about four feet long, and
there're some lance-headed rattlesnakes. They all pack a powerful venom, but the
most dangerous are down closer to the pool-Fer-de-Lance-see the pretty ones with
the arrow-shaped markings along their backs? Trust me, Chief, you don't want to
be bitten by one of them." Blair's head jerked around as he squinted, trying to spot the snakes Jim had
recognized in the dim light. His breath caught as his eyes widened, having made
out a few local variety deadly serpents and realizing how much danger he'd been
in by having wandered too close, his curiousity when he first saw them
overwhelming his sense of caution. Swallowing, he nodded and eased up another
couple of steps. "Let's, ah, let's get back to the fire," he
suggested, shivering with a sudden chill. "Good idea," Ellison grunted, abandoning his torch but keeping hold
of the ‘snake hook' as he looped an arm around his best friend's shoulders and
they set off, back up the staircase. Blair's flashlight illuminated the deep
gloom inside, the beam bouncing off grey stone green with moss and reflecting
back from the shallow puddles as they ambled back toward the entrance. As the light played over faded frescos and carvings on the walls, Blair's
attention was diverted from his possible brush with sudden death back to his
enthusiasm over what he'd seen in his aimless ramble through the long corridors
and some of the side chambers. "This place is a treasure house of knowledge, Jim," he enthused
eagerly. "It'll take a lot more time than we have to do it justice, but
I've already seen some stuff that I can't wait to decipher in detail. I think
some of it referred to the ‘mating rituals' on the beach at Sierra Verde…and
other stuff seemed to be about the ritual selection of companions. And, there
were hieroglyphics on the walls around the pools near the entrance that referred
to the Eye of God…" "Breathe, Sandburg," Jim chuckled, ruffling his friend's still damp
curls, ignoring the clutching of his gut at the references to 'mating rituals'
and 'the Eye of God'. "You've got more than a week to explore and study the
place." "I could use a year," Sandburg sighed, but he was smiling, evidently thrilled with what he hoped to learn. "Let's see what you think when it's time to go," Ellison consoled him, beginning to hope that this trip wouldn't prove to be a
complete disaster after all. "Maybe you'll learn enough, or maybe we'll need to come back. Right now…you're shivering from the
chill and there's a mug of soup back at the fire with your name on it." "Sounds good, man," Blair replied with a flashing grin up at his partner. "I'm starving." ******************** After they'd eaten, Blair resumed his study of the Temple's treasures
beginning with the hall they were in. He took photos of the hieroglyphics, faded
frescoes and the images that had been painstakingly carved into the walls long
centuries before. After about two hours, he dropped down by the fire and
rummaged in his pack for a notebook and pen, as he mumbled, "I think the
images and writing in here describe the coming together of the tribes for the
rituals and practices concerning sentinels and their companions." "Yeah?" Jim murmured, turning his attention from the storm that
continued to rage outside and focusing his sight to study the dim murals and
carvings. Looking up from where he was kneeling on the floor, glad of Jim's interest,
Blair stood to point out some of the more obvious of the stylized graphics.
"Uh huh," he replied, pointing upward. "See, there? The tribes
approaching from different directions. And there? The young would-be companions
being lined up in front of jaguars-likely the ceremony for choosing companions.
And, uh, over here," he continued, moving across the floor, "two
jaguars entwined on a beach near the water…" Sensing Jim's discomfort, he
continued along quickly to another carving above the entrance to the chamber
containing the pools. "And, here," he said thoughtfully, "it
looks like both the jaguar and the companion are together in the water under the
Eye of God. Man, I think you were really lucky to have gotten through that
experience alone." Jim frowned at his friend's words. "I wasn't exactly alone, Chief," he said quietly. "I told you that." "Oh, yeah, I know, she was there but…" Sandburg began
diffidently, hating the thought of Alex Barnes in this place. "I wasn't talking about Alex, Sandburg," Jim cut in, more sharply
than he'd intended. When Blair turned to look at him, surprised at the tone, Jim
looked away, searching inside of himself for what had made him so suddenly
angry. Turning his gaze back upon Sandburg, he demanded, "Why do you always
diminish the role you play, the role of guide or companion or whatever the hell
you call it?" Waving at the imagery around them, recalling Señora
Alvarez's words, he continued, "This place isn't just about sentinels,
Chief. It's pretty clear to me that companions have a pretty significant
role-both from these images and from what José's mother told us that a good
part of what happened here was the choosing of the companions-who, she pointed
out, were very gifted people." Blair's gaze dropped and he shrugged self-consciously. Sighing, he lifted his
head and his hands unconsciously rose into the air as well as he struggled to
explain his feelings. "I don't know, Jim. I guess because I feel like I'm
just guessing most of the time, even now after all these years. I mean-you were
born a sentinel, it's genetic and yeah, you have to choose to use your talents,
but they're real, man. Me? I've studied all I could get my hands on, but that
doesn't make me a ‘companion', just someone who's doing the best he can, like
a blind man stumbling where others could, should, see more clearly."
Pushing his fingers through his hair, he added bleakly, "And as for what
Señora Alvarez told us, and José as well, hey, their stories were about guides
or companions who failed, Jim. Frankly, that scares the hell out of me…that
one day I'll fail. In those stories, it was usually the Jaguar who paid the
price. And, well, you saw the similarities in those stories as clearly as I did.
I wrote down the words that let your secret out. I moved out. And, well, I died
when I went up against…against someone I couldn't handle. And I should have
been able to handle her! Because I screwed up, she could have killed thousands
of people-she could have killed you! If I was a real guide, a real companion, I
should have known, somehow, instinctively, I don't know-but I should have known
how to handle her and I didn't. I'm doing my best, Jim, I really am…but I
don't think my best is good enough, man." "Whoa, slow down, Darwin," Ellison exclaimed, his hands up to stop
the torrent of words as he moved across the stone floor to stand in front of
Sandburg. Laying his hands on Blair's shoulders as he looked down into the
shadowed eyes of his best friend, Jim said, "For a start, I don't think you
give yourself nearly enough credit. I also think that you take way too much
responsibility for things, when I messed up as badly as you did. We've been over
all of that, Chief-we both made mistakes. We've learned from them, right?" "Yeah," Blair replied quietly, but his eyes remained clouded with worry. "But that's why I had to come here, Jim. Whether I'm a
real 'companion' or 'guide' or not, I'm all you've got-I have to learn all I can." Nodding, Jim patted his friend on the shoulder as he turned back toward the fire. Waving up at the wealth of information carved
and painted onto the walls, he said with a note of resignation in his voice, "Well, go to it, kid. If you run out of time on this
trip, like I said earlier, we can come back again, as often as necessary, until you're satisfied that you've learned all there is
to know about sentinels and their companions." Blair swallowed and blew out a breath. "Thanks, Jim-I appreciate
that," he said sincerely, sensitive to how much Jim hadn't wanted to come
in the first place, let alone repeatedly, and then he turned his attention back
to the symbols on the walls. Ellison wandered back to the entryway to lean on the cold stone wall,
shoulders tight as he crossed his arms over his chest and gazed apparently
impassively out at the raging storm. But he wasn't seeing the wind-slashed trees
or hearing the heavy rumbling of thunder. Fragments of memories and visions, of
real moments in time blending with scenes from his nightmares danced ghoulishly
in his mind, making his chest tight and his gut roil. Many of the visions he'd
had in the damned pool behind him had come true, and they mocked him with his
inability to stop terrible things from happening, even when forewarned. Some of
his more recent nightmares now had counterpart experiences in reality, but
they'd turned out better. Sandburg hadn't been crushed by that falling tree,
hadn't gasped out his last breath in Jim's arms. Was he learning? Finally?
Paying better attention or something that allowed him to act in time to avert
tragedy? Could he keep the rest of his nightmares from coming true? ******************** The heavy, ravaging rains continued to pelt out of the heavens for the next
two days. Driven by the harsh, powerful winds, the cutting, relentless fall of
water loosened the earth and shredded the fronds of the jungle growth, leaving
them in tatters, the mighty trees themselves leaning awkwardly as if trying to
escape the endless abuse, some of them giving up and falling in exhaustion.
Moisture worked its way in through the eroded mortar between the massive stones
of the Temple, loosening some, causing others to succumb to gravity as they
crashed loudly, the sounds reverberating throughout the ancient edifice as they
landed, stone caving onto stone, or tumbled heavily to the ground outside,
clattering down the steps, loosening and chipping them into further disrepair.
Dampness oozed like a miasma around them, chilling and comfortless so that the
only place that was even halfway dry and warm was right next to the small fire
that Jim kept feeding to drive back the cold. Blair clothed himself in layers, wryly thinking that he'd thought he'd be warmer in the jungle, go figure. But most of the
time, he wasn't consciously aware of the discomforts, his mind too wrapped up in the old, long lost knowledge etched in stone that
surrounded him. He was oddly silent, in Jim's view, as the older man was used to a more loquacious partner. Oh, sure, he mumbled
and exclaimed softly to himself as he studied the walls, deciphering their secrets as he scribbled in his notebook, but not since
the first afternoon had he pointed out anything in particular. Patient, Jim figured the kid was 'processing' what he was learning,
and would share it all when he was ready. They both slept restlessly. Blair's busy mind was filled with dreams that
featured long dead tribes and their rituals, as it catalogued, assimilated and
synthesized information, storing it away for ready access when it was needed.
Jim continued to be haunted by nightmares in which a distant, somehow menacing,
rumbling roar, like a runaway train somewhere, drew ever closer, and the earth
itself seemed to fight him. He could see Sandburg, his eyes wide with alarm, his
face too white-and he could hear Señora Alvarez's words echo in endless
repetition: There is danger…make your own choices. He'd awaken sharply,
startled and shaking with a sense of confusion and helplessness, needing to slow
down his breathing and search for calm. In the dark and silence of the pre-dawn
hours, he found himself wondering why he wasn't dreaming of Incacha, why the
wily old shaman wasn't giving him any clues about what he needed to be doing to
be ready for whatever still threatened. Their fourth morning at the Temple, the sun rose in a crystal clear sky, its
warmth quickly evaporating the surface moisture left by the storm and causing
stone to contract. It grew hot again outside, stifling, and both men were then
glad of the relief from the heat offered by dim coolness of the Temple. Jim,
growing weary of the bland packaged foods, decided to go hunting and he truly
felt like one of those sentinels of old, as he had during those months years ago
in Peru, when a few hours later he brought back enough meat to last them a week.
During his hunt, he also happened by a nearby stream where he cleaned himself up
after carving up the carcass of the stag, and filled all their canteens so that
they had water enough for at least two days. Providing for my ‘tribe',
he thought with the hint of a grin as he carried his haul, carefully wrapped in
large leaves to preserve it, into the entry hall. Sandburg was sitting cross-legged by the fire, sipping a mug of tea and
scribbling in his notebook, when Jim strode in through the portal. Looking up,
Blair grinned at the transformation of his friend, from civilized man to
timeless hunter, as he took in the cloth tied tightly over Jim's head, the
streaks of mud on his face and arms that he used for camouflage, his cross-bow,
quiver and canteens over one shoulder and the heavy leaf-wrapped package of meat
in his arms. "Well, if it's not Jungle Jim, home from the hunt," Blair teased. "I see you got lucky." "Luck had nothing to do with it, Einstein," Ellison growled back menacingly with a mock scowl as he approached the campfire and
laid his burden down at the feet of his 'tribe'. "This is the result of finely honed skills." "Yeah, I know," Blair snickered, though his nose wrinkled a bit reflexively at the sight of the blood on the leaves. "So,
what's for dinner?" "About a mile from here, I picked up the tracks of a deer…" Jim began. "A deer?" Sandburg interjected with feigned dismay. "Man, you Jaguars sure know how to carry a grudge!" "Watch it, Stinky," Ellison snapped back, "or you'll be eating more of Señor Lipton's boring soup while I feast like a king." "Peace, man," Blair chuckled as he shifted onto his knees and pulled a frying pan out of their pack of supplies. "I've had
enough of that soup to last me for a while, but," he added, pulling out one of the ubiquitous small packages, "it makes a fine
seasoning when sprinkled over fresh meat!" Blair left Jim to prepare the meat while he roamed outside to find edible tubers and fresh fruits to add to their feast. A
little more than an hour later, they were chowing down with gusto, savouring the fresh, rich flavours, comfortable and at ease in
one another's company. Later, while Jim cleaned up the remains of their meal, Blair wandered out of
the hall intent upon studying the walls in another fairly large chamber that
seemed to have been where sentinels had chosen their companions. He'd begun work
there earlier that morning, and if he understood what he was deciphering, he was
finding it fascinating to learn that sentinels apparently didn't choose
companions from their own tribe, but that something else was at play-a